Thursday, November 27, 2008

urbandictionary

Go to urban?dicti?onary?.????com and type in your answer to each quest?ion in the searc?h box, then write? the FIRST? defin?ition? it gives? you.


1) Your name??

. kristina - sexiest girl ever....she needs to stop looking in the mirror when she says sexy!
:)
Kristina is sexy and yea.

hala

2) Your age?

1. twenty five years
The description used for a girl who is under the legal age for sex, usually reserved for those under 14 but developing.
From the statement that having sex with a underage girl can land you with a sentence of 25 years to life in jail, depending on country.
Johnny : "look there, shes hot"
Peter : "shes Twenty five years!"
Johnny : "but shes hot"
Peter: "shes too young to have my wicked way with!"


3) One of your frien?ds??

1. pie
1. A food item consisting of a fruit buried under a crust and baked in an oven. Served in slices. Very popular at parties.

2. A word that can be used to answer any question known to man, and can be an excuse if you do not know the answer to the question.

3. A random word to shout for no particular reason at all. Great in moments of silence.
1. Mary baked me a cherry pie. How sweet.

2. What's the answer to number 1?
uhh . . . pie?

3. PIE!!!


4) What shoul?d you be doing???

1. monitor
what you're looking at right now.


5) Favor?ite color???


1. Violet
a beautiful flower or an extremely sexy girl. a flirtatious, crazy person can be referred to as a Violet. The flower is found in Africa; see African Violets and a Violet girl is found wearing hoop earrings and smiling.
Random Savillion: "Did you see that girl dancing at the club last night?"
Urban Adolescent: "Yeah, dude. She was such a VIOLET."

Random Savillion: "Those flowers are beautiful."
Urban Adolescent: "They're violets."

6) Birth?place???


1. Manila
The State Capital of the Philippines.
I went to Manila this summer and it is very humid there.

7) Month? of your birth?day??

1. december
The month in which the hottest women are born.
That girl is FINE! She must have been born in December.

8) Last perso?n you talke?d to?

. faye
PrEtTy GaL!!

9) What did you last drink???

1. Water
The 4th element required to summon Captain Planet
EARTH
FIRE
WIND
WATER
HEART

GO PLANET!

By your powers combined, I am Captain Planet!


10) Your nickn?ame?

1. KC
A city known for barbecued ribs and a love of sports. Also known for being located mostly in Missouri, not Kansas.
I went to KC to meet my grandmother.

11) Your girlf?riend? or boyfr?iends? name??

1. calvin
Calvin: sheer delight. he is amazing.

A boy of wonder.
a boy who posesses; cunning, tact, looks, and insight.

alot of people would say that calvin is vain, stuck-up and selfish. in reality these people are nothing but jelous fools.

Calvin's best friend is a girl of extreme wonder ashton.
"calvin! wow he's so amazing, there are no words to describe his awsomeness!!"

Quarterlife Crisis Chronicles #21: The confirmation of the BIG adventure

This is it...

It's confirmed...

I'm going to the US for the training (ha! I'll be seeing the guy-who-made-me-cry-because-of-a-stupid-email, but hey, he's my senior... might as well be friendly to him since I'll be working with him when I start working as Tier 2). Well... actually I'm not yet sure if I will be trained there or I will do the trainig for the account I'm handling. But wait, there's more! I'm supposed to leave on December 8, which is 2 days before my 25th birthday. Nyak! Dun ako magbibirthday at magpapasko? Di makatarungan ito!

Teka... ala pa pala ako passport... nyahahahaa

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

What are you thankful for?

FYI. This was first posted last year on my other blog, http://astoldbykeisi.spaces.live.com. I'm reprosting it here because there's a lot of things I am thankful for, especially this year
Today is Thanksgiving. We don't celebrate that occassion here in the Philippines, but it's good to stop and think what you're thankful for once in a while. Here's my list of things that I am thankful to God.
I thank God for bringing me into this world, for I will never know my meaning and purpose. Though I am still searching for answers, and though I don't know the reason why I am here on earth, I thank Him for giving me the opportunity to live and enjoy life.
I thank God for my mom. She is my strength, my best friend, my everything (I know this really sound so cheesy). She was always there for me, taking care of me, providing for me. She was able to do her role as both a mom and a dad for me. With her, I never felt incomplete for she have given me her love unconditionally.
I thank God for my long-time friends. Those friends who were there throguh the years. They were there when I needed them most. I thank God for letting me meet such wonderful persons. I know we are all different, but we are bonded by that one true thing - our friendship. I know it was wrong for me to just suddenly shut my life from them just like that (in the past), but I thank God for making me realize that they are my true friends and that no matter what happens, they are still willing to be accept me. They were like the sisters I never had. I thank God for letting me meet them, and for letting them change my life forever.
I thank God for all the trials and challenges He gave me in the past. If He had not given me such trials, I wouldn't be able to learn a valuable lesson. I thank God that He opened my eyes, and made me realize that I am stronger and braver than I think I am. There are times that I want to give up, times when I question why He had given me such trials at a very young age. But I know He will nver give me something that I cannot overcome. I trust in Him that he will not give me a challenge that I know I could not overcome without His help
I thank God for making me single. Yes, I complain about being single but I thank God that I am. I enjoy every minute of being alone, at least I can analyze what I really want in life, and so that I can grow as a person. Maybe if I am in a relationship right now, I know I would want to be out of it. I have no worries about the other half being unfaithful, or me being pressured into doing things that I don't want to do. I thank God for giving me a long time to think.
I thank God for my first love. I know it was an unrequited love. I thank God that I was able to meet him and love him, though we can never be together. I thank God for the chance of letting me feel what it's like to be in love, for I have never know the real me if I hadn't been in love.
I thank God for him. For letting me meet him and letting me fall in love with him, though I know I could never have him. I am happy loving him from afar, and I will be contented with that. It would be too much to ask for me to be by his side forever, but still thank God that I met him.
I thank God for my job. It brings food to the table, as well as let me have my luxaries. I know there are times that I feel tired doing my job, but I thank him for making me come to my senses. I thank God for helping me do my job well, and for letting me love and enjoy my job.
I thank God for that one special person - the one he has prepared for me. The one I am meant to spend the rest of my life with. The one whom I will love and will love me in return. My soulmate. I know I haven't met him yet, but I thank God for him, for he's the only reason why I still believe in love. Maybe we'll meet soon, and I thank God for the day I will finally meet him.
I thank God for all the small opportunities that he gave me. Though I know I failed, I thank Him for making me be a better person after each experience.
I thanks God for all the father figures that came into my life. First there was "papa", my grandfather. He loved me dearly, and although I'm only got to be him for a short time before He took him from us, I am grateful that I was given the chance to be with a wonderful grandfather, a chance that my younger cousins have never experiences. I thank God for "daddy", my uncle, who loved me like his own child. Without them, maybe my childhood will be full of questions.
I thank God for my grandma. She took care of me when my mom's at work. During my rebellious years, we always fight. She was very overprotective and strict, but she always spoils me. It was later that I realized that the reason why she's strict with me is because of she doesn't want me to be taken away from my family.
I thank God for my talent. I may not be musically inclined or dance well or act like a pro, but I thank God that he gave me the talent to write. I thank God for the knowledge he have given especially when I needed it the most. I thank God for the wisdom He have imparted on me during troubled times.
I thank God for bringing those people who became my second family. The girls who have been my support. It feels good to be with them all the time, because I know that I truly belong whenever I am with them. I don't need to pretend that I am someone else whenever I'm around them. I can be as crazy as I want to be whenever I am with them.
I thank God for that one chance that he let me see him - my knight in shining armor. The guy who "saved" me from my heartaches and confusion. Though I was not able to get beside him or touch him or talk to him, I am still thankful he fulfilled my wish to see him in person. I know asking to be beside him will be too much, but who knows? One day, I'll be able to see him again and maybe we could even be friends (ha ha! as if! but still, I am wishing and hoping)
I thank God for the secret fans, those who look up to me, those who gave encouraging words for me to continue. They inspire me to do better.
I thank God for all the rare opportunited he gave me. I know there's a reason why I was given this. I trust that He will help me get through my next challenges.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Handwriting analysis

From http://www.handwritingwizard.com

Welcome Kristina Angeles, here is your handwriting analysis.

Kristina uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone.

The circumstances when Kristina does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise.

Kristina will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally.

Kristina is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Kristina doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Kristina is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.

Kristina has a desire for attention. People around Kristina will notice this need. She may fulfill this need by a variety of ways depending on her own character.

Kristina can be defiant. She sometimes has the attitude that if someone doesn't like it the way she is doing it, then they can just "go to hell!" This trait may reveal itself in a rebellious nature that is always ready to resist forces which she thinks are infringing upon her freedom of action.

Diplomacy is one of Kristina's best attributes. She has the ability to say what others want to hear. She can have tact with others. She has the ability to state things in such a way as to not offend someone else. Kristina can disagree without being disagreeable.

In reference to Kristina's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Kristina slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Kristina can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Kristina is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Kristina basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

Kristina is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Kristina will take action on her thoughts. She is positive that her views are correct for her. She has the ability to seem as if she is positively correct when answering a question, even if she does not have the slightest idea of the answer. Kristina displays a self-confidence that makes everyone else sure she is correct. She is positive of her own views, but not necessarily stubborn.

Something is incomplete in Kristina's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Kristina's sexual needs.

Kristina is constantly disappointed when trying to reach success. She works very hard, perhaps harder than most, then just before succeeding, something happens that keeps her from success. Often, Kristina changes to a second project just before the first one is finished, thus failing to complete the first project. Sometimes she changes because she feels she needs a different challenge. Kristina feels dejected. This feeling relates to her failures. This trait is very important in a working situation and in a relationship. She must be handled in a very special way to get the most work from her or to make a relationship last. Concerning this trait, personality modification is available to change her life.

Kristina has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Kristina has left some white space on the left side of the paper. Kristina fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion moving the entire writing rightward as she moves down the page. If this is true, then Kristina has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Kristina is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Kristina is leaving the past behind and moving on to what she perceives as an exciting and enticing future.

Not so confirmed, but is confirmed

Hmmmm...

Monday night...

Miss, miss...

Tier 2 ka na daw...

PAKING SHET!!!!

One Last Try

Di ka pa rin nagreply...

What's wrong ba?

Ayaw mo ba talaga sa kin?

Or busy busyhan ka lang??

Haaaayyy ayawan na...

One Last Try

Di ka pa rin nagreply...

What's wrong ba?

Ayaw mo ba talaga sa kin?

Or busy busyhan ka lang??

Haaaayyy ayawan na...

Monday, November 24, 2008

All I Want for Christmas

Di muna laptop

Or bagong phone...

Gusto ko muna punta sa KL concert ng FRH hehehe

Friday, November 21, 2008

Repost - Everything a woman should know

1. How to fall in love without losing yourself.
2. How you feel about having kids.
3. How to quit a job, break up with a man and confront a friend without ruining the friendship.
4. When to try harder and when to walk away.
5. How to kiss a man in a way that communicates perfectly what you would and wouldn’t like to happen next.
6. How to have a good time at a party you’d never choose to attend.
7. How to ask for what you want in a way that makes it most likely you’ll get it.
8. That you can’t change the length of your calves, the width of your hips or the nature of your parents.
9. That your childhood may not have been perfect, but it’s over.
10. What you and wouldn’t do for love or money.
11. How to live alone, even if you don’t like it.
12. Who you can trust, who you can’t, and why you shouldn’t take it personally.
13.How to love imperfectly
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Love is like waiting for a bus

Love is like waiting for a bus. When the bus
comes, you look at it and you say to yourself
"eeee…so full….cannot sit down, I’ll wait for
the next one."

So you let the bus go and waited for the second
bus. Then the second bus came, you looked at it
you said, "eeee…this bus is so old…so shabby!"

So you let the bus go and again, decided to wait
for the next bus.

After a while another bus came, it’s not crowded,
not old but you said, "eeee…not air conditioned
…better wait for the next one." So again you
let the bus go and decided to wait for the next
bus.

Then the sky started to get dark as it was
getting late. You panicked and jumped immediately
inside the next bus. It is not until much later that
you found out that you had boarded the wrong bus!
And you wasted your time and money just to get
into the wrong one!

Even if an air conditioned bus comes, you can’t
ensure that the air conditioned bus won’t break
down or whether or not the airconditioner will
be too cold for you.

Wanting to get what you want is not wrong. But it
wouldn’t hurt to give other people a chance. If
you find that the "bus" doesn’t suit you just
press the red button and get off the bus! Hey, who
said life is fair??? The best thing to do is be
observant and open-minded. If it doesn’t suit you,
get off.

I’m sure you’ve had this experience before. You
saw a bus coming (the bus you want of course). You
flagged it but the driver acted as if he did not
see you and zoomed pass you! It just wasn’t meant
for you!

The bottom line is, being loved is like waiting
for a bus you want. Getting on the bus and
appreciating the bus by giving it a chance depends
totally on you. If you haven’t made any choice,
WALK!

Walki ng is like being single. The good side of it
is you can still choose any bus you want…the
rest who couldn’t afford another ride would just
have to be content with the bus they rode on, ugly
or not.

Also, sometimes it is better to ch oose a bus you
are already familiar with rather than to gamble
with a bus that is unfamiliar to you. But then
again, life wouldn’t be complete without the risks
involved.

But there is one bus that I failed to tell you
about.- the Bus you do not have to wait for, the
Bus that will stop on its own and ask you if you
wish to come inside, then take you for a joy ride
for the rest of your life.

Hope you get to ride on that bus!

Leave...

i was thinking of you lately, but then i realized you’re not worth to be remembered. not because you broke my heart a hundered times but because i realized i have let you go. you gave me the reason to stop loving you. you gave me my life back by doing so, and its great because i’m living it the way i want it to. i also realized you have you’re own life. maybe you dont think of me or even know me you never knew how muh i loved you and the pain i’ve been through. you dont care. you tried to pretend but you just didnt, and that didnt made thing easy for me, for use, before. i realized that no matter how much i loved you you can never love me back. or was i giving you the reason not to love me? if so, then you’re wrong. if not, then you’re one insensitive son of a bitch. i kept on asking myself, if you realized my feelings for you and learned that there’s this crazy girl loving you, would you be like that? i don’t think you’ll want to answer this one. and i don't think i would want to hear the answer as well. past is past, and whatever i have gone through, you have gone through, i don't give a damn anymore.
goodbye. dont ever come back in to my mind, into my heart, and into my life…

Anu itetch???

Calvin immediately hung onto Chun and pestered him to introduce a Brunei girl to him, and Chun promised to stick a marriage notice on his fitness center back in Brunei for him

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Pakitawag na lang ako pag nakahanp na sya ng Brunei girlfriend

Thursday, November 20, 2008

If...

If waiting will bring me true love...

I'll keep on waiting...

Magaral tayo, Keisi Angeles

Narealize ko starting next week wala na ako gagawin bwahahahaaha paano kasi sa Ohio na yung account good. Is that a good thing or a bad thing? Both! nyahahaha wag lang akong tanungin about rosettanet putek aaralin ko pa yun!

At dahil wala na akong gagawin, tutulong na lang ako sa teammates ko. Kailangan aralin lahat ng processes ng EMEA clients hirap naman kung sa TIer 2 papalpak pa ako nyahahahaha good luck sa kin

Quarterlife Crisis Chronicles #20 - I'm a BIG BIG girl in a BIG BIG world

Finally...

The big challenge: Confirmed already

The big adventure: To be confirmed...

Haaaayyyyy... I guess the last quarter of 2008 and next year would be one hell of a big adventure for me! But somehow, with regards to the big adventure, I'm quite scared. Hey, I'll be setting off to a new adventure all by my lonesome self, which is great or not great at all. I'll be meeting a lot of new people and I'll be learning a lot of new things... this is a rare opportunity I really couldn't pass...

Wish me Luck!

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

GOOD MORNING!!!!

kung yung gwapo mong mukha yung makikita ko araw araw...

deadz na ako...

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Appreciated

Of all the mess I've done, of all the hard work I did... It was glad to know I am being appreciated by other people... it was great... akala ko pagagalitan nya ako pero in the end he praised me... he even told me about my recommendation for Tier 2... tsaka talagang papaalam nya sa higher ups yung mga kalokohang ginawa ko (nyahahahahaha) well thank you rin sa yo kasi kung wala ka, di ko magagawa yung trabaho ko. Buti ka pa naappreciate mo lahat lahat...

Quarterlife Crisis Chronicles #19: Remind me again why I am doing this

I am at a point in my life wherein I tend to forget why I am in this battle, why am I this fanatic, why, of all people, him?

I am at a point in my life wherein I want to walk away from everything I've worked hard, I want to forget all of this and go back to the old me.

I am at a point in my life that I intend to go back to my old, dirty ways..

All the reason why I changed to the Keisi you all know now, is because of him. And somehow it sucks... because it seemed that my world revolved around him, and of course, the guy doesn't even give a damn. He doesn't even know me. God, he doesn't even know I exist!

I am thankful for him because he became my inspiration. He was my reason why I am taking such risks. But it's quite tiring chasing him... it's quite tiring loving someone you know who could never love you back. It was fun at first, but now, it's just giving me headaches.

Remind me again why I'm doing this? All for the love of the man who turned my life 180 degress, arranged it for me, changed my old ways, who inspired me...

I need my reality check...

I've been living in a dream for two years now...

It's time to wake up

Monday, November 17, 2008

Quarterlife Crisis Chronicles #18: Off to see the world, off to take another challenge, off to find another chance

This is it...

I was asked the most important question one day. I said yes. Then, I totally forgot all about it.

Then, I received an e-mail. It was like a confirmation of what was asked of me a few weeks ago. I admit it was hard on my part to decided just then, so I left the e-mail unanswered, taking the whole weekend to think about my decision. Although my mom was already ecstatic about the whole idea, I was not comfortable about leaving my comfort zone, and I'm not confident about my skills. I was scared. Just the thought of being alone in the big big world just made me cry...

I asked God's help about making the most crucial decision ever in my entire life. Yesterday, when me and my mom went to hear the mass, the Gospel was all about the parable of talents. That was my sign. I am saying yes... I'm going to take my chances and I know I will grow as a person if I take this rare opportunity.

Well... all I can say is I'm a big big girl in a big big world, am I?

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Friday, November 14, 2008

Xin Wo... Literal na meaning na talaga ito hindi heart's nest

Ok eto na...

Dahil bwisit yung allergy (read: skin problem) ko nang dahil sa sobrang init sa bahay (ilang buwan na kaming walang kuryente)... eto na sinabi na ng nanay ko... mabuti pa nga lumipat na ako ng bahay... ang problema, wala pa ako lilipatan

WOOHOO!!! HOUSE WARMING EVERYONE!!! ay mali... share-a-condo lang pala yung papatusin ko... anyways... Xin Wo pa rin naman di ba??? New home...

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Broken

She's gone...
Far away...
Far away from your love...
From away from you...
You had your chance when you could. She gave you nothing but unconditional love. And now... now it's over. She finally woke up from this madness. She finally realized that it's not worth it... you're not worth it... you're not worth every sacrifice she have made. You have taken her for granted, ignored her love. All that mattered to you is you, yourself. It has always been you. It has always been all about you.
Have you seen the tears she have shed for your? Have you heard her soft cry at night? Have you seen the sadness in her eyes behind those gleeful smiled? I bet you didn't... I bet you never noticed that before. All you did was hurt her. All you gave her was heartache. The only crime she have made is to love you more than anything else in this world. It was too much. Sometimes, one's heart would grow weary of waiting to be loved in return.
She's gone...
She willl never look back...
And one day,
She will learn to forget you...
One day, she will find the one who could give her back the love she have wanted. One day, she will find the reason to smile again. One day, she will find her happiness, and that happinesee will exclude you. You will not be part of her world anymore. Her world will not revolve around you anymore.
You don't deserve her...
Not anymore...
She could've given you everything in this world, but you chose to break her heart...

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

ang mahal mong mahalin

Well, di naman ako nagsisisi na ginastusan kita., Pero shet!!! dinaig mo pa yung boyfriend ko!!! akalain mo yun!!! if i'm not mistaken, mga 2K na nagastos ko sa yo... fotah dapat pansinin mo yung regalo ko ha??

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

pakshet ka

masama na ba magkaron ng typo ngayon? kahapon pa issue yun bat ngayon mo lang inuungkat???

Monday, November 10, 2008

may gaya gaya...

Di bale next year mas maganda at mas unique yung gift ko sa yo... I love you hunny!

I AM SAD....

I know this should be a happy day for me. It's my hunny's birthday today. But for some unknown reason, I don't feel like celebrating his birthday...

I'm quite sad today. I could feel the pressure coming over me - may it be from work, from my family, from everything. I feel so tired... it's like I've pushed myself so hard, so hard that I can't give anything anymore. It's like I've given my all, and since I've given everything, there's nothing more to give (langya ang redundant ng line na ito...). I want to scream, I want to shout, I want to lie on my bed and sleep all day.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Daddy long legs

when i woke up this morning, i decided to leave you for sometime. the virus in me takes away the memories of love. it makes your scent dull and slows down my steps following you. if things get worse and i forget about you completely, my heart will always feel and love you. when the warm sunshine embrace the world. i ran into you. hoping that very moment will last forever. i'm now freezing memories of you inside me, like the sand that doesn't fall in your hour glass

there were no stars at first, as people started to love, their hearts went up to the sky and become stars. it means there's so much love in this world that we're not aware of.

if only i could keep memories of you... if i lose my memories and become a different person, i'd still love you

Sari Saring Status/PSM sa YM at WLM

Top 10 Favorite Status message ko sa YM at WLM ko

10. is taipei time the same as manila time? take note... TAIPEI wahahahahaha lol!

9. thinking of a happy thought while you're gone

8. kuya tama na please uwi na tayo ayokong nakikita kang nahihirapan

7. all i want for christman is Chun... i mean you...

6. spell love: C-A-L-V-I-N

5. you broke my broken heart

4. in that short moment with my eyes closed... i'll miss you

3. i hate life and all of it's complexities

2. you can have his heart. but that can only happen if you won't give up

and the number 1 is...

1. WARNING! TOO MUCH YAOI IS BAD FOR YOUR SANITY

epekto ng wala pang tulog

Let's sing...

1...

2...

3...

IKENAI TAIYO!!!

Na na na na na na na na

Na na na na na na na na

wala nag papagising lang 2 hours lang tulog ko eh...

Friday, November 7, 2008

sino ka?

nalilito ako sa name mo...

from bob ong again

kung matatakot kang harapin ang totoo at sabihin ang talagang nararamdaman mo dahil baka masaktan ka, isa lang ibig sabihin nun - ipinagkait mo na sa sarili mo ang pagiging masaya at kinarir mo nang magpakatanga...

Thursday, November 6, 2008

All I want for Christmas

  • my own apartment
  • a new laptop
  • a new phone
  • tickets to S.H.E/Fahrenheit concert
  • manga ng shinshi doumei cross
  • manga ng hana kimi
  • manga ng ouran high host club
  • malaking diary
  • deathnote notebook

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Let's look at it at a different view...

Siguro nga she appreciates what we have done...

What we did...

Puta... dalawang araw na walang tulugan! Puta! Mahal na mahal natin talaga sya! As in MAHAL na MAHAL natin sya! That's how much we love the guy right?

Ayoko na maginit ang ulo ko...

huuuyyyy.... ay naku keisi kaya lang lumamig ulo mo kasi si you-know-who nakita mo nagonline sa YM... yihee...

Tapusin na natin ang init ng ulo ko

Kesa patulan kita ayusin ko na lang yung mga projects namin... nakakawrinkles ka lang...

naninigkit na naman mata ko....

Pwede tayong umasa...

as in pwedeng pwede

hanggang asa lang

magsama kayo nung isang hoping and wishing na babaitang hanggang sa pangalan eh umaasa na lang!

ECHOSERANG FROG KA!!!

Quarterlife Crisis Chronicles #17 - My Life's Not-So Little Pressures

  1. Work
  2. Transition Period
  3. House Hunting
  4. Family Problems
  5. Extra-Curricular activities

WAAAAHHHH!!!!

Monday, November 3, 2008

Nanay ko talaga...

Sabi nya namatay si Sophie sa Green forest my home... hindi naman! kung di lang ako pupunta sa hana kimi eb nun sana napanood ko ending nun... HINDI NAMAN PALA NAMATAY SI SOPHIE!!!! kakainis!

Quarterlife Crisis Chronicles #16: The Five Steps - What I've learned from 'My Big Love'

Step 1: Goal Setting

- Actually, dito pa lang sa part na ito, hirap na ako. I have no idea what my goals are... hmmm if you can consider what I have written here goals, then well, yes... yun na nga goals ko. Those are my goals for the next year or so...

Step 2: Start Today

-hmmm... basing sa list ko, di ko alam kung alin dun yung magagawa ko now... as in now... siguro yung pagpapapayat, or siguro gagalingan ko na lang sa work. haaayyy ang sarap kaya kumain tsaka pumetiks... pero sabi nga ni Toni Gonzaga sa My Big Love.. kailangan magsimula ngayon...

Step 3: No Shortcuts

- hindi naman siguro ako papayat in a weeks times di ba? or di kaya mapromote the next day... or maging kami ng dream guy ko mamaya... guess I just have to work hard on everything that I want...

Step 4: Motivate yourself

- that's the problem, I can't find an inspiration to motivate me :(

Step 5: Be Happy!

- always naman ako happy ah?

Quarterlilfe Crisis Chronicle #16

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Quarterlife Crisis Chronicles #15: I just realized

I just need someone who could love me and accept me for who I am... and who will change the me that I am right now...

Where could I find that person?

Star - Chapter 8

Chapter 8: Guardian Angel


He turned to his side, and tried to close his eyes, but it seemed that he can'tsleep. He turned to his side again, but still, he couldn't sleep. He stood up from his bed and sighed... He was just with Kelsi a while ago, but he started missing her. It seems like agaes since he have heard her voice, and kissed her lips. He reached for his phone, then dialled her number.

One ring.
Two rings.
Three rings.

He was about to hang up when he finally heard her voice. He was not able to speak as soon as she heard her say hello. He smiled to himself as he listens to her voice. "Yi Quan?" she finally said. He blushed as she speaks his name. He felt like a school boy having a crush on his girl classmate. "Yes, I am here, Kelsi..." he finally said.

Kelsi smiled as he speaks. "Why are you still up this late? Don't you have to film your new series tomorrow?"
"Well... I can't sleep..."
"And why can't you sleep, Mr. Zuo?"
"I miss you..."

Kelsi pause, and smiled to herself again. She could feel her cheeks blush as he said that. "Didn't we just had dinner a while ago? And now you're starting to miss me?" she teased him. "Well, don't you miss me, Dr. Ramirez?" he asked. "Yes, I miss you too..."
"I bet you can't sleep as well..."
"How did you know?"
"I can feel it."

Sometimes, it makes him wonder how he could read her mind. It's as if whatever he feels, she feels as well. "Can you sing me a lullaby so that I can sleep?" he cooed. Kelsi gave a faint laugh upon hearing his request. "You're a big boy, Yi Quan... why do I have to sing you a lullaby?" she said. "Because I want you too!" he said in his most childish voice. "Pretty please? with sugar on top? Please, please, please?" He heard Kelsi gave out a sigh. Then, he heard her laugh again. "OK, ok... I'll sing to you, just this once.." she said, giving in to his request.

"ai wo fei ni mo shu
wo zhi yuan shou hu you ni gei wo de xing fu
ai wo fei ni mo shu
ye xu hui xiao zhe ku dan na ren shi ni suo yi bu pa ku"

"That's beautiful..." Yi Quan said as soon as she ended the song. "Do you think I should have a duet with you in your next album?" she asked in between laugh. Yi Quan laughed as well. "That's a good one... I'll ask my manager if I could have a duet with my girlfriend on my next album... but I'm scared that once you become a star, all the guys will steal you from me."
"You don't have to worry about a thing, Quan... you know I only have my eyes on you..."

Quan then plopped into his bed. This is all he needed to have a goodnight sleep, and maybe this is all he need to start his day right tomorrow. "It's getting late, Quan... you better sleep now or you'll be late for tomorrow." Kelsi said. "Aye, aye captain... Wan an..."
"Wan an.."
"Kelsi..."
"Hmmm?"
"Wo... wo ai ni..."

Kelsi became silent upon hearing that. She smiled to herself, silently thanking God for giving her this chance with him. She was silently thanking whoever it is that gave Yi Quan to her. "Wo ai ni, Zou Yi Quan..." And that's all everything she needed to keep on going...

--

Yi Quan woke up the next day to find Ya Se, Xiao Yu and Xiu Yi in his pad. As usual, he found Xiu Yi by the kitchen, ready to raid his ref. "Good Morning, Quan!" Xiu Yi cheerfully said. "Hope you don't mind... Mei Ru let us in..." Quan just nodded his head, and left Xiu Yi to hog all of his food. Meanwhile, he found Ya Se and Xiao Yu by the living room. The two looked at each other before the latter stood up to join Xiu Yi at the kitchen. "What's up, bro?" Ya Se said as Quan joined him in the couch. "Nothing..."
"I can see you have some good night sleep, Quan..."
"You bet! By the way... why are you all here? Don't we have to film the series or-"
"They cancelled it. Technical problems."

Silence.

"Actually..." Ya Se began. "We came here because we want to talk to you about something..." Quan gave him a confused look. "Well... there's this news..."
"Ya Se..." Quan interrupted. "If it's about Ah Sa, I don't give a damn about her."
"No, Quan. This is not about Ah Sa... it's about the girl that you're constantly dating..."

Yi Quan turned his gaze at the opposite direction. So the news about him and Kelsi is finally out. Sometimes he wonder, when can he have the joy of privacy. "Yi Quan, tell me... that girl... she's not a rebound for Ah Sa... right?" Ya Se asked. Quan looked at him. "Why are you asking?"
"I just want to know... I just want to know that there won't be complications with you and this girl... I just want to know that you won't hurt her... I want to know that you're not using her to forget Ah Sa..."

He paused. After Ya Se posed that question, he became unsure of his answer. He admits before he met Kelsi, Ah Sa was his life. His world revolved around her, to the point that he forgot himself. He have put her into a pedestal, only to find out that she will just break his heart. When Kelsi came to his life, it's like he immediately forgot all about Ah Sa. Everything seemed to be like a whirlwind - everything happened in a snap. Yi Quan closed his eyes. He was quite confused. He knew he love Kelsi, but a part of him knew he have not moved on.

"She... I... I'm..."
"Quan, listen to me. If you are just using her to forget Ah Sa, then you're making a wrong move. In the end, you're the one who's going to hurt more, as much as you're going to hurt her. If she's just a rebound girl, then let her go..."
"Ya Se, it's not like that. I love Kelsi. I do..."

Ya Se smiled upon hearing that. "I'm glad to hear that..." he said. "I'm sorry to barge into your love life just like that. It's just that we don't want you to be like Xiu Yi... and we don't want you to make the same mistakes that I made before... you knew the story, right?" he said. Quan nodded his head. He smiled at his friend, but at the back of his mind, he had a lot of questions to answer for himself... about him, and his feelings for Kelsi.

--

It was late in the evening and Kelsi was walking back to her apartment. As she walked through the dark street, she could sense that someone was following her. She looked back to find a shadow about to approach her. Scared, she was walked as fast as she could, but she could sense that the one following her was keeping up with her pace. Then, she decided to run. While trying to run, she tried to reach for her mobile phone to call either Jian Hua or Yi Quan, but before she could, someone reached for her shoulder.

"Kelsi!" she heard him call her name. His voice was familiar. She looked up to see Yi Quan, wearing his usual disguise of shades and cap. She sighed with relief. She thought her life's in danger. "You... you scared me..." she said while panting. "Sorry to scare you... I was trying to follow you, but you were walking too fast..." he said. She looked up at him and smiled. Yi Quan, hugged her tight. "I'm really sorry... I should've picked you up at the hospital, but I saw some paparazzis there..." he explained.

Kelsi understood him. That afternoon during her shift, Ren Jie and Xin Lei told her that there were some reporters and paparazzis hounding the hospital ground. Good thing their security was strict, and they were not able to get in. It can't be helped, she thought. She was dating a superstar, and dating Yi Quan means that everything that she does will be of interest to these reporters. "How about a late dinner?" Yi Quan suggested. "If we go to a restaurant, wouldn't those reporters be able to follow you?" she asked. Yi Quan gave her a smile, and then winked at her. "Don't worry, I took care of that."

--

"Don't tell me you reserved the whole restaurant just for the two of us..." Kelsi asked Yi Quan as soon as they entered a five-star restaurant in a hotel. Yi Quan looked at her and smiled. "Exactly... you know superstars like me deserves some privacy, you know..." he said proudly. Kelsi couldn't help but laugh at him. "I just want spend just a few hours with you alone... I hope you wouldn't mind me doing this..." he said. Kelsi looked up at him and smiled, then gave him a kiss on his nose.

They had their dinner, and after they finished eating, Yi Quan asked Kelsi to dance. "Shall we?" he said. He stood beside her and held out his hand to her. Kelsi nodded her head, and took Yi Quan's hand. and stood up from her chair. Yi Quan put his arm around her waist, and then they began to slow dance. "This is weird..." Kelsi said. "We're dancing, but there's no music..." Yi Quan moved his face closer to her, then smiled. "There is... can you hear it?" he said huskily. Kelsi shook her head. Then, Yi Quan began to hum. "i can hear it now..." she said in a low voice. She closed her eyes as they dance, she listened to the music that's been playing in her ears.

Then, they stopped dancing. Yi Quan stared intro her black orbs, and slowly, he moved his face towards hers. Without hesitations, he kissed her... and it was a long kiss. At that moment, Kelsi could really here the music in her ears.

--

What they didn't anticpated was a bunch or reporters waiting for them outside the hotel. As soon as they got out, their eyes were blinded by the flash of cameras surrounding them. "What are we going to do?" Kelsi asked Yi Quan, who was hounded already by the reporters. Yi Quan looked at her, and squeezed her hand. "Trust me, OK?" he said. Kelsi just nodded her head. She could hear the reporter questioning him about her, if she is his girlfried, if she is the girl who replaced Ah Sa in his heart. He never answered the question. He just squeezed her hand and then pulled her. "Run..." he in almost a whisper, enough for her to hear. Then, they began to dash and get out amidst the crowd. They were almost near the parking lot, when Yi Quan felt Kelsi's hand let go. He stopped running and saw Kelsi down on the floor. "Yi Quan... help..." she said. He went back to get her. He took her hand, and then carried her. The reporters still following them. When he saw a paparazzi's camera too close to Kelsi's face, he took his camera and threw it on the ground. Yi Quan was able to sigh with relief as soon as they were inside the car.

"Are you OK?" he asked Kelsi. She just nodded her head. "I'm glad to hear that..." Kelsi looked up to him. "Yi Quan, you don't have to be that harsh to the reporter..." he said, pertainig to the one who's camera he threw on the ground. "He was about to hurt you... I'm sorry I have to do that..."

"You don't have to say sorry to me, Quan... you have to say sorry to that reporter..."
"But -"
"Yi Quan... you did something wrong to that guy. You should apologize."

Yi Quan just sighed. Kelsi's right. He did the man wrong, and he should apologize for his actions. He's sure that the news about that will come out the next day. "OK, OK... I'll apologize to him... I promise..." he said. Kelsi smiled at him. "You know what, you should be thankful to him... to them... because if they didn't follow us, you wouldn't carry me..." Kelsi said. Yi Quan, put his hand on her cheek, and gave her a kiss on the lips.

--

The next day, Ah Ken stormed into his pad and angrily put a tabloid on the coffee table. His bandmates, who were there for a visit, took a look at it. "'Zuo Yi Quan harrases reporter for girlfriend'" Xiu Yi read. Then he looked with disbelief at Yi Quan. "Wow... man I never thought you could do that!" he said. Yi Quan remained silent. "What's this all about, Quan? Care to explain it to me?" Ah Ken said. "The paparazzis... I was scared they're going to hurt her... so..."

"So you have to hurt the reporter for this girl, huh Yi Quan? Didn't you ever think your reputation as an artist?" Ah Ken said. Yi Quan stood up from his seat and faced him. "I don't care!" he shouted. "I don't care what people would say about me after that incident. She needed me... I have to protect her! Can't you see that, Ah Ken?"
"Tell me, what is it with this girl that you would risk everything that you'll worked for? What is she to you, Zuo Yi Quan?"

Yi Quan looked away from Ah Ken. "I love her... I love this girl..." he said in a low voice. "And I'll do everything to keep her by my side..." Ah Ken sighed with disappointment. Lately, Yi Quan's becoming too stubborn. It started when he dated Ah Sa. "Yi Quan, listen to me..." he said more calmly. "We don't want you to get hurt... and we don't want you to go through that phase again. It's better if you just break up with this girl. Who knows, maybe she's just using you..." Yi Quan looked at him, and shook his head. "Don't tell me to break up with her. You know I will never do that, Ah Ken. Don't ask me to do something you know I can never do. You just have to accpet that..." Then, Yi Quan retreated back to his room.

--

That night, Yi Quan went to Kelsi's apartment. He knew he's still on duty at the hospital, but he decided to stay and wait for her. He fell asleep waiting for her. By midnight, he was awaken by a slight nudge by his shoulder. "Yi Quan..." he heard someone say his name. He slowly opened his eyes and saw Kelsi standing by his car. "Quan.. what are you doing here?" she said in a worried tone. "I wanted to see you..." he said.

Kelsi got inside his car so that they could talk. "I heard the news... about that paparazzi... I'm sorry to cause you problems..." she said in a low voice. "No, Kelsi... I'm sorry that you have to get into this circus..." he said. He took a deep breath and sighed. "Sometimes I wish I am not doing this job... that I am not a superstar... then may be we can have a peaceful life..." Then he looked at her.

"Do you think, if I am not an artist, we would still meet?" he asked her. Kelsi looked up at him and smiled. "Yes... if God would allow us to meet... if it's destiny... then we would meet..."
"And we'll still fall in love with each other, right?"
"I would still fall in love with you, Quan... though you're not a star anymore"

Yi Quan smiled to himself, then looked at Kelsi again. "You trust me, don't you, Kelsi?" he asked. "Of course, I do trust you..." she answered. Then, he started the engine of his car, then looked at her again. "Let's get somewhere... let's runaway from here even for just a day... come with me Kelsi... I just want to be with you..."

Nagbrowse lang sa CrunchyRoll

Title: How often is someteimes

Translation: Gaano kadalas ang minsa

Ah ewan!

Quarterlife Crisis Chronicles #14 - Reasons

And just when I'm about to give up,

You gave me the reason to hold on,

You give me the reason to continue this fight...

And I just won't let go

Because I know in my own little way

Someday you will like me too...