Saturday, March 31, 2007
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Chinovela
Naadik ako sa chinovela at Chinese movies. Hindi yung kung fu na Chinese movies. Yung Chinese movies na may love story. Sayang lang, kasi yung Ch. 87 sa cable namin, blurry na naman... bad trip..
Anyway, may bago akong fave na chinovela. Eto siya:
Cute yung story niya. Babae siya na may crush sa karoommate niya kaya nag-aral siya sa All- Boys school. Hehehe. Wala lang, just sharing this thing
Anyway, may bago akong fave na chinovela. Eto siya:
Cute yung story niya. Babae siya na may crush sa karoommate niya kaya nag-aral siya sa All- Boys school. Hehehe. Wala lang, just sharing this thing
Monday, March 26, 2007
Naaalala ko...
... ang una nating pagkikita. Medyo mayabang ka non, at di kita gusto. Who would've thought I would fell for you..
... ang una nating pag-uusap sa telepono. Nakakatawa ka... nakuha mo agad ang loob ko...
... ang unang beses na napaginipan kita, at nung gumising ako... alam kong hindi lang kaibigan ang gusto kong mangyari sa atin...
... nung muli tayong magkita... masayang masaya ako nun...alam ko magiging part ka na ng barkada namin...
... nung nakita ko kayong magkayakap... hindi ko alam pero nagselos ako... selos, galit, pagkamuhi... lahat yun naramdaman ko nung panahon na 'yon...
... nung subukan mong lumapit sa kin... ayokong pansinin ka... oo alam ko na ang dahilan kung bakit ako nagseselos... dahil alam kong mahal na kita... ayokong makita mo yun... ayokong umiwas ka dahil sa nararamdaman ko para sayo
... nung siya na lang palagi ang kasama at kausap mo... andito rin naman ako... hindi ako hanging... may iba pang kasama sa barkada, bakit siya lang?
... nung inaming niya sa king nililigawan mo sya... para matakpan lang ang nararamdaman ko sa yo, sinabi kong pinagseselosan kita, dahil isa kang malaking hadlang sa friendship namin...
... nung nagkita tayong muli at inaway na kita... inaway hanggang mainis ka sa kin... pero kung alam mo lang kung gaano kahirap sa kin ang gawin yun... kung gano kasakit na makitang nagagalit ka na sa kin...
... ang kantang inalaan ko para sa yo... na kahit marinig ko sya ngayon ikaw na lang palagi ang maaalala ko...
... mga luhang pumatak sa mata ko ng dahil sa yo...
... yung sumpa ko sa sarili ko na hihigitan kita... na gaganti ako... na balang araw mamahalin mo rin ako at pag dumating ang panahon na yun, hindi na rin kita mahal
... nung isuot mo sa kin yung friendship bracelet...
... nung nagkailanganan tayo... palagi na lang... pag nagkikita tayo...
... a, oo nga pala... tuwing nakikita kita... palagi na lang nawawala ang galit ko sa yo... and I fall head over heels again for you...
... yung huling sayaw natin sa panaginip ko...
... ang una nating pag-uusap sa telepono. Nakakatawa ka... nakuha mo agad ang loob ko...
... ang unang beses na napaginipan kita, at nung gumising ako... alam kong hindi lang kaibigan ang gusto kong mangyari sa atin...
... nung muli tayong magkita... masayang masaya ako nun...alam ko magiging part ka na ng barkada namin...
... nung nakita ko kayong magkayakap... hindi ko alam pero nagselos ako... selos, galit, pagkamuhi... lahat yun naramdaman ko nung panahon na 'yon...
... nung subukan mong lumapit sa kin... ayokong pansinin ka... oo alam ko na ang dahilan kung bakit ako nagseselos... dahil alam kong mahal na kita... ayokong makita mo yun... ayokong umiwas ka dahil sa nararamdaman ko para sayo
... nung siya na lang palagi ang kasama at kausap mo... andito rin naman ako... hindi ako hanging... may iba pang kasama sa barkada, bakit siya lang?
... nung inaming niya sa king nililigawan mo sya... para matakpan lang ang nararamdaman ko sa yo, sinabi kong pinagseselosan kita, dahil isa kang malaking hadlang sa friendship namin...
... nung nagkita tayong muli at inaway na kita... inaway hanggang mainis ka sa kin... pero kung alam mo lang kung gaano kahirap sa kin ang gawin yun... kung gano kasakit na makitang nagagalit ka na sa kin...
... ang kantang inalaan ko para sa yo... na kahit marinig ko sya ngayon ikaw na lang palagi ang maaalala ko...
... mga luhang pumatak sa mata ko ng dahil sa yo...
... yung sumpa ko sa sarili ko na hihigitan kita... na gaganti ako... na balang araw mamahalin mo rin ako at pag dumating ang panahon na yun, hindi na rin kita mahal
... nung isuot mo sa kin yung friendship bracelet...
... nung nagkailanganan tayo... palagi na lang... pag nagkikita tayo...
... a, oo nga pala... tuwing nakikita kita... palagi na lang nawawala ang galit ko sa yo... and I fall head over heels again for you...
... yung huling sayaw natin sa panaginip ko...
Standing at the edge of the Earth
I knew that this moment would come in time
That I'd have to let go and watch you fly
I know you're coming back so why am I dying inside
Are you searching for words that you can't find
Trying to hide your emotions but eyes don't lie
Guess there's no easy way to say goodbye
So I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping that someday you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth hoping for someday
Don't misunderstand what I'm trying to say
I don't want to let you leave this way
I want you to know that I stand right by your side
And I know this may be
The very last time that we see each other cry
But whatever happens know that I'll....
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping that one day you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth hoping that someday
You'll come back to me
I'll be praying for whatever it's worth
Believing that one day you'll come back to me
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping for someday
And I know this may be
The very last time that we see each other cry
But whatever happens know that I'll....
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping that one day you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth hoping that someday
You'll come back to me
I'll be praying for whatever it's worth
Believing that one day you'll come back to me
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping for someday
Waiting for someday Believing in someday
Praying for someday, I'll be....
Longing for someday Clinging to someday
Cherishing someday, I'll be....
Thinking of someday Dreaming of someday
Wishing for someday, I'll be....
Living for someday Counting on someday
Knowing that one day....
I will see you
That I'd have to let go and watch you fly
I know you're coming back so why am I dying inside
Are you searching for words that you can't find
Trying to hide your emotions but eyes don't lie
Guess there's no easy way to say goodbye
So I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping that someday you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth hoping for someday
Don't misunderstand what I'm trying to say
I don't want to let you leave this way
I want you to know that I stand right by your side
And I know this may be
The very last time that we see each other cry
But whatever happens know that I'll....
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping that one day you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth hoping that someday
You'll come back to me
I'll be praying for whatever it's worth
Believing that one day you'll come back to me
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping for someday
And I know this may be
The very last time that we see each other cry
But whatever happens know that I'll....
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping that one day you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth hoping that someday
You'll come back to me
I'll be praying for whatever it's worth
Believing that one day you'll come back to me
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping for someday
Waiting for someday Believing in someday
Praying for someday, I'll be....
Longing for someday Clinging to someday
Cherishing someday, I'll be....
Thinking of someday Dreaming of someday
Wishing for someday, I'll be....
Living for someday Counting on someday
Knowing that one day....
I will see you
Sunday, March 25, 2007
And then, she was gone
*still from "As told by Ginger"...
She chose to walk alone
Though others wondered why
Refused to look before her,
Kept eyes cast upwards,
Towards the sky.
She didn't have companions
No need for earthly things.
Only wanted freedom,
From what she felt were
Puppet strings.
She longed to be a bird. That she might fly away.
She pitied every blade of grass
For planted they would stay.
She longed to be a flame,
That brightly danced alone.
Felt jealous of the steam
That made the air its only home.
Some say she wished too hard.
Some say she wished too long.
But we awoke one autumn day
To find that she was gone.
Some say she wished too hard.
Some say she wished too long.
But we awoke one autumn day
To find that she was gone.
The trees, they say stood witness.
The sky refused to tell.
But someone who had seen it said
The story played out well.
She spread her arms out wide.
Breathed in the break of dawn.
She just let go of all she held...
And then she was gone.
She chose to walk alone
Though others wondered why
Refused to look before her,
Kept eyes cast upwards,
Towards the sky.
She didn't have companions
No need for earthly things.
Only wanted freedom,
From what she felt were
Puppet strings.
She longed to be a bird. That she might fly away.
She pitied every blade of grass
For planted they would stay.
She longed to be a flame,
That brightly danced alone.
Felt jealous of the steam
That made the air its only home.
Some say she wished too hard.
Some say she wished too long.
But we awoke one autumn day
To find that she was gone.
Some say she wished too hard.
Some say she wished too long.
But we awoke one autumn day
To find that she was gone.
The trees, they say stood witness.
The sky refused to tell.
But someone who had seen it said
The story played out well.
She spread her arms out wide.
Breathed in the break of dawn.
She just let go of all she held...
And then she was gone.
Hello, Stranger
*from "As told by Ginger"... one of my favorite poems...
Hello stranger
You came just in time
I look for your face in a crowd or in line
Hello stranger
Not a moment too soon
See- that old picture is fading in the drawer of my room
Now toys have gone lost
Baby teeth have come loose
There were accidents involving stitches
spilled juice
Report cards were shown
And one time I got sick
But it's nothing I couldn't catch you up on real quick
Hello stranger
I saved you a place
And it hardly seems strange
Now that I've seen your face
What is the sound of a heart breaking?
Welcome to the dark side of love.
What is the sound of one heart breaking?
It is the sound of someone curled up in a tiny ball crying softly in the night, the sound of the first unwanted teardrop touching your skin, it's the sound of a telephone that doesn't ring, the sound of regret pounding inside your brain with every heartbeat, it's the whispers of the toy animals she gave you.
It's the shuffling of feet walking away from you, the sound of your soul shattering into a million pieces at recognizing the word "goodbye," it's the soundtrack of memories torturing you, it's the sound of feeble hands trying to push back the obstinate hands of time, it's the sound of a cherub's dying breath, the sound of all those years disappearing in the vortex of Cupid's kitchen sink, it's the unrelenting, plaintive baby meows of an abandoned kitten outside an ignoring door.
It's the sound of the rain that doesn't ever stop, the sound of all the doors in the world shutting and closing in your face at the same time, of raging, howling storms in the night when there's no one there to hold you, the sound of your voice as it screams back at you, the echo of "I love you" burning holes in you, the sound your heart makes as it tells you to lie still because nothing you will ever do will matter without love.
The sound of the waves at the polluted beach you went to as it moves from the shore and crashes inside your mind, of the sniffles that make up your pathetic "SOS-to-the-world," the cracking of the brittle black-red petals from the sidewalk vendor roses she gave, the sound of the music she used to make going to your gut.
The sound of things in your room being thrown around and landing on the floor, the caress of sharpened kitchen knives on skin, the sound your throat makes as you swallow your saltiest tear. It's the sound of your own voice calling out to someone who isn't there, of winged creatures dying and falling on a city pavement, of terms of endearment used a hundred times a day struggling to crawl into a vacuum of forgetfulness, it's the sound of your own sobs keeping you company, it's the cold, uncaring stillness of the air you share your space with.
Destruction isn't always as noisy as bombs exploding. Sometimes the ultimate catastrophes are as quiet as feather falling on the floor of a Zen monastery. No one else can really hear your heart breaking except you.
What is the sound of one heart breaking?
It is the sound of someone curled up in a tiny ball crying softly in the night, the sound of the first unwanted teardrop touching your skin, it's the sound of a telephone that doesn't ring, the sound of regret pounding inside your brain with every heartbeat, it's the whispers of the toy animals she gave you.
It's the shuffling of feet walking away from you, the sound of your soul shattering into a million pieces at recognizing the word "goodbye," it's the soundtrack of memories torturing you, it's the sound of feeble hands trying to push back the obstinate hands of time, it's the sound of a cherub's dying breath, the sound of all those years disappearing in the vortex of Cupid's kitchen sink, it's the unrelenting, plaintive baby meows of an abandoned kitten outside an ignoring door.
It's the sound of the rain that doesn't ever stop, the sound of all the doors in the world shutting and closing in your face at the same time, of raging, howling storms in the night when there's no one there to hold you, the sound of your voice as it screams back at you, the echo of "I love you" burning holes in you, the sound your heart makes as it tells you to lie still because nothing you will ever do will matter without love.
The sound of the waves at the polluted beach you went to as it moves from the shore and crashes inside your mind, of the sniffles that make up your pathetic "SOS-to-the-world," the cracking of the brittle black-red petals from the sidewalk vendor roses she gave, the sound of the music she used to make going to your gut.
The sound of things in your room being thrown around and landing on the floor, the caress of sharpened kitchen knives on skin, the sound your throat makes as you swallow your saltiest tear. It's the sound of your own voice calling out to someone who isn't there, of winged creatures dying and falling on a city pavement, of terms of endearment used a hundred times a day struggling to crawl into a vacuum of forgetfulness, it's the sound of your own sobs keeping you company, it's the cold, uncaring stillness of the air you share your space with.
Destruction isn't always as noisy as bombs exploding. Sometimes the ultimate catastrophes are as quiet as feather falling on the floor of a Zen monastery. No one else can really hear your heart breaking except you.
This I know best (from GirlTalk)
This I know Best
By: Mariel Calalo
"Can friends be lovers?" Such is the lingering question that I would rather leave unanswered because not knowing actually makes me hope the answer is a definite yes. Coffee, however, and a dose of Frank Sinatra's music, does to me what beer can't. Coffee opens me up and allows me to ponder on such questions, and maybe actually lead me to finally give it a conclusion.
As I sip my tall, cafe mocha with one equal, my regular morning companion, I ponder on the question. Well, perhaps my initial answer would be "It's complicated." Let me disect the intricacies and complexities of such an arrangement.
To Know You Is To Love You (Or Not!). I think there is some truth to the saying "Familiarity breeds contempt." Familiarity is a double edged sword. Familiarity means you know the best and the worst things about the person. Familiarity means he knows the best and the worst things about you. Such knowledge can and will be used either to your advantage or to deem you unsuitable. I think it's great that a person likes you, knows and loves the little eccentricities you have and allowing you to be as weird as you can be... But (yes, there is a big BUT coming), I think sometimes these are the very things that people consider in arriving at a decision that both of you would not be suited for each other. This is especially true if you want different things in life. Sometimes, knowing a person very well to the point of being able to read them like a book paralyzes you with fear --- fear of losing this comfortable, familiar, friendly zone, should things get serious yet eventually not work out. To this what I can say is, at least you know what you're getting into. Sometimes, it's better to know than be surprised. The thing about women and romantic relationships, we tend to want to change the man we have chosen and 20 or if we're lucky, 30 years from now, we look at the person from across the table and not have to say, "Wait I minute. You're not the man I fell in love with!" The thing about this knowing the good and the bad in a person is that we don't need to put up the idea that this man could be something else. The thing is we know the truth and we are more able to make informed decisions.
I Am Afraid of Ruining the Friendship. This is probably the most emphasized excuse used in dismissing confused friendships. However, think about this. You find this person who knows you, understands the little nooks and crannies of your complicated self, reads you like a book, understands you by just looking at you. Damn! You may very well consider him your soulmate! And then just because you're afraid of ruining the friendship you keep this lingering question to yourself and watch some other girl waltz in and sweep him off his feet with just a flip of her long, flowing black hair. Think about what you're losing if you don't tell him and then think about what you are gaining if you took the risk of telling him. If it's worth it, go for it. Even if this guy is just Mr. Maybe, you need to at least check it out, because this I know, sometimes with the right person, you don't always know it at very beginning. Sometimes, you don't hear violins and you don't feel magic as love grows. Sometimes it grows on you, silently, like a bad habit it gets you. And then so suddenly, bam! You're in love. Who knows? Don't swat it just yet. Who knows? Eventually, the caterpillar can turn into a butterfly.
And If You're Really Lucky... Ally McBeal turned to John Cage and said, "I think we're blessed. If they're as lucky as us, they would be able to have what we have." John turns to Ally and ask "What is it exactly do we have?" Ally responds "A true, platonic frienship." It broke John's heart but that's just the thing about friendship, honesty. Go ahead, free fall with the truth. If you took the road that leads you to answer the question raised with a clear "No" and are still able to remain friends, this I KNOW BEST, you're blessed. With some friendships, you know right there and then what the answer is. With some friendships, you need to take a journey to understand and know the answer for sure. Whatever the case, he's a blessing. If you're really lucky or maybe if you both work on it, you could have what Ally and John had too.
By: Mariel Calalo
"Can friends be lovers?" Such is the lingering question that I would rather leave unanswered because not knowing actually makes me hope the answer is a definite yes. Coffee, however, and a dose of Frank Sinatra's music, does to me what beer can't. Coffee opens me up and allows me to ponder on such questions, and maybe actually lead me to finally give it a conclusion.
As I sip my tall, cafe mocha with one equal, my regular morning companion, I ponder on the question. Well, perhaps my initial answer would be "It's complicated." Let me disect the intricacies and complexities of such an arrangement.
To Know You Is To Love You (Or Not!). I think there is some truth to the saying "Familiarity breeds contempt." Familiarity is a double edged sword. Familiarity means you know the best and the worst things about the person. Familiarity means he knows the best and the worst things about you. Such knowledge can and will be used either to your advantage or to deem you unsuitable. I think it's great that a person likes you, knows and loves the little eccentricities you have and allowing you to be as weird as you can be... But (yes, there is a big BUT coming), I think sometimes these are the very things that people consider in arriving at a decision that both of you would not be suited for each other. This is especially true if you want different things in life. Sometimes, knowing a person very well to the point of being able to read them like a book paralyzes you with fear --- fear of losing this comfortable, familiar, friendly zone, should things get serious yet eventually not work out. To this what I can say is, at least you know what you're getting into. Sometimes, it's better to know than be surprised. The thing about women and romantic relationships, we tend to want to change the man we have chosen and 20 or if we're lucky, 30 years from now, we look at the person from across the table and not have to say, "Wait I minute. You're not the man I fell in love with!" The thing about this knowing the good and the bad in a person is that we don't need to put up the idea that this man could be something else. The thing is we know the truth and we are more able to make informed decisions.
I Am Afraid of Ruining the Friendship. This is probably the most emphasized excuse used in dismissing confused friendships. However, think about this. You find this person who knows you, understands the little nooks and crannies of your complicated self, reads you like a book, understands you by just looking at you. Damn! You may very well consider him your soulmate! And then just because you're afraid of ruining the friendship you keep this lingering question to yourself and watch some other girl waltz in and sweep him off his feet with just a flip of her long, flowing black hair. Think about what you're losing if you don't tell him and then think about what you are gaining if you took the risk of telling him. If it's worth it, go for it. Even if this guy is just Mr. Maybe, you need to at least check it out, because this I know, sometimes with the right person, you don't always know it at very beginning. Sometimes, you don't hear violins and you don't feel magic as love grows. Sometimes it grows on you, silently, like a bad habit it gets you. And then so suddenly, bam! You're in love. Who knows? Don't swat it just yet. Who knows? Eventually, the caterpillar can turn into a butterfly.
And If You're Really Lucky... Ally McBeal turned to John Cage and said, "I think we're blessed. If they're as lucky as us, they would be able to have what we have." John turns to Ally and ask "What is it exactly do we have?" Ally responds "A true, platonic frienship." It broke John's heart but that's just the thing about friendship, honesty. Go ahead, free fall with the truth. If you took the road that leads you to answer the question raised with a clear "No" and are still able to remain friends, this I KNOW BEST, you're blessed. With some friendships, you know right there and then what the answer is. With some friendships, you need to take a journey to understand and know the answer for sure. Whatever the case, he's a blessing. If you're really lucky or maybe if you both work on it, you could have what Ally and John had too.
Last Chance...
Sa wakas!!! Nakita ko na rin yung mp3 ng fave songs ko... Nadownload ko na rin sa wakas ang mga sumusunod:
1. Say it - Voices of Theory
2. Music box - Mariah Carey
3. Higher - Creed
4. Standing at the Edge of the Earth - Blessid Union of Souls
5. If the feeling is gone - Kyla
6. Last Chance - Allure.
Masaya ako kasi nadownload ko na yung "Last Chance". May tape ako dati ng Allure, kaso napatungan ng telephone conversation.
Maraming memories sa kin yung kantang yun. Kanta ko yun... kanta ko para sa first love ko...
Naalala ko nung high school ako, pinatutugtog ko sya sabay iyak... kasi alam kong hindi na siya magiging akin dahil hindi nararapat, dahil alam kong hindi din niya ako kayang mahalin
Come to think of it, 7 years na pala ang nakakaraan. Ilang years ba akong umasa na mapapansin niya ako? Ilang years ba ako naghintay? Ilang years ba ang sinayang ko dahil hindi ako makapaglet go sa kanya? 7 or 8 years... I don't know if it's still counting.
Siya yung gusto kong partner nung bequeathal. Siya yung gusto kong maging 1st boyfriend, first kiss, lahat. Pati nga partner for life, siya rin sana gusto ko... pero di nga nangyari...
Ok na ako sa partner sa bequeathal. Kahit sana siya ang last dance ko... pero... hindi pa rin...
8 years.. 7 years... ang tagal na pala...
Pero importante pa rin sa king yung kanta. Hindi na bale kung kanino ko inilaan yung kanata. Importante yung memory ko nang dahil sa kanta...
1. Say it - Voices of Theory
2. Music box - Mariah Carey
3. Higher - Creed
4. Standing at the Edge of the Earth - Blessid Union of Souls
5. If the feeling is gone - Kyla
6. Last Chance - Allure.
Masaya ako kasi nadownload ko na yung "Last Chance". May tape ako dati ng Allure, kaso napatungan ng telephone conversation.
Maraming memories sa kin yung kantang yun. Kanta ko yun... kanta ko para sa first love ko...
Naalala ko nung high school ako, pinatutugtog ko sya sabay iyak... kasi alam kong hindi na siya magiging akin dahil hindi nararapat, dahil alam kong hindi din niya ako kayang mahalin
Come to think of it, 7 years na pala ang nakakaraan. Ilang years ba akong umasa na mapapansin niya ako? Ilang years ba ako naghintay? Ilang years ba ang sinayang ko dahil hindi ako makapaglet go sa kanya? 7 or 8 years... I don't know if it's still counting.
Siya yung gusto kong partner nung bequeathal. Siya yung gusto kong maging 1st boyfriend, first kiss, lahat. Pati nga partner for life, siya rin sana gusto ko... pero di nga nangyari...
Ok na ako sa partner sa bequeathal. Kahit sana siya ang last dance ko... pero... hindi pa rin...
8 years.. 7 years... ang tagal na pala...
Pero importante pa rin sa king yung kanta. Hindi na bale kung kanino ko inilaan yung kanata. Importante yung memory ko nang dahil sa kanta...
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Isang masaklap na pangyayari...
Dapat masaya ang araw na ito sa kin. Bukod sa alam kong mayaman na naman ako dahil sa sweldo ko, makikita ko ulit ang ngiti sa mukha ng nanay ko dahil sweldo ngayon. Oo... sweldo ngayon, pero kinain ng ATM ng Banco de Oro ang sweldo ko. Masaklap ang pangyayaring ito dahil 8 araw na naman akong pulubi...
Dahil mahirap magwithdraw sa I-bank na pinakamalapit sa min dahil sira ata yung ATM nila... naisipan ng nanay ko na sa Banco De Oro na lang iwithdraw ang sweldo ko tutal idedeposit rin naman nya yun dun sa bangko na yun. Masaya na sana sya dahil 8.1 kiyaw ang sinuweldo ng kanyang pinakamamahal na anak, kung di lang walang lumabas na pera nung winithdraw nya ang sweldo. At syempre dahil sa panic, sinigod ng nanay ko yung bangko para ilabas ang sweldo ko. Tinawagan ng Teller yung Call Center nila. Matapos ang ilang segundong diskusyon at 10 minutong hold time, nakita na ng Call Center Agent na taga BDO ang problema. Ibabalik daw nila ang pera ko sa loob ng 10 araw o mas maaga pa.
10 araw... sana sinabi na lang nilang magbunjee jumping ako sa Quezon Bridge, matatanggap ko pa. 10 araw na wala sweldo at pera... yung 10 araw (technically dapat 7 days lang dahil sa 3 araw na leave ko) na pinaghirapan ko... yung pawis at dugo ko sa pagbabantay ng Service Line... yung 10 araw na pinagtrabahuhan ko... pagkatapos pa ulit ng 10 araw ko makukuha.... Anak ng teteng talaga!
Marami pa man din akong balak ngayong sweldo. Nadisgrasya yung pambili ko ng Fitrum at panlibre ko kay Pie sa Yellow Cab. May sale din daw sa National Bookstore... yung Wizardology na book Php299 na lang... malas naman... bibili pa man din ako ng bagong sapatos.. haaayyy
10 araw na naman akong pulubi... kawawa naman ako...
Dahil mahirap magwithdraw sa I-bank na pinakamalapit sa min dahil sira ata yung ATM nila... naisipan ng nanay ko na sa Banco De Oro na lang iwithdraw ang sweldo ko tutal idedeposit rin naman nya yun dun sa bangko na yun. Masaya na sana sya dahil 8.1 kiyaw ang sinuweldo ng kanyang pinakamamahal na anak, kung di lang walang lumabas na pera nung winithdraw nya ang sweldo. At syempre dahil sa panic, sinigod ng nanay ko yung bangko para ilabas ang sweldo ko. Tinawagan ng Teller yung Call Center nila. Matapos ang ilang segundong diskusyon at 10 minutong hold time, nakita na ng Call Center Agent na taga BDO ang problema. Ibabalik daw nila ang pera ko sa loob ng 10 araw o mas maaga pa.
10 araw... sana sinabi na lang nilang magbunjee jumping ako sa Quezon Bridge, matatanggap ko pa. 10 araw na wala sweldo at pera... yung 10 araw (technically dapat 7 days lang dahil sa 3 araw na leave ko) na pinaghirapan ko... yung pawis at dugo ko sa pagbabantay ng Service Line... yung 10 araw na pinagtrabahuhan ko... pagkatapos pa ulit ng 10 araw ko makukuha.... Anak ng teteng talaga!
Marami pa man din akong balak ngayong sweldo. Nadisgrasya yung pambili ko ng Fitrum at panlibre ko kay Pie sa Yellow Cab. May sale din daw sa National Bookstore... yung Wizardology na book Php299 na lang... malas naman... bibili pa man din ako ng bagong sapatos.. haaayyy
10 araw na naman akong pulubi... kawawa naman ako...
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Idol kita, bill gates!!!
RULE 1......Life is not fair; get used to it.
RULE 2......The world won't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.
RULE 3......You will NOT make 40 thousand dollars a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice president with a car phone, until you earn both.
RULE 4......If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss. He doesn't have tenure.
RULE 5......Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your grandparents had a different word for burger flipping; they called it opportunity.
RULE 6......If you mess up, it's not your parents' fault, so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them.
RULE 7......Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you are. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parents' generation, try "delousing" the closet in your own room.
RULE 8......Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life has not. In some schools they have abolished failing grades; they'll give you as many times as you want to get the right answer. This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.
RULE 9......Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summer off and very few employers are interested in helping you find yourself. Do that on your own time.
RULE 10.....Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.
RULE 11.....Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one.
RULE 2......The world won't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.
RULE 3......You will NOT make 40 thousand dollars a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice president with a car phone, until you earn both.
RULE 4......If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss. He doesn't have tenure.
RULE 5......Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your grandparents had a different word for burger flipping; they called it opportunity.
RULE 6......If you mess up, it's not your parents' fault, so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them.
RULE 7......Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you are. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parents' generation, try "delousing" the closet in your own room.
RULE 8......Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life has not. In some schools they have abolished failing grades; they'll give you as many times as you want to get the right answer. This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.
RULE 9......Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summer off and very few employers are interested in helping you find yourself. Do that on your own time.
RULE 10.....Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.
RULE 11.....Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one.
Happy Birthday, Pie!!!
Sa lahat ng pwedeng kalimutan, di ko pwedeng kalimutan ang birthday ng tropa ko. Ngayon kasi ay brithday ni Pie. Naalala ko, bago ako mag-off, naglagay ako ng greetings sa bulleting. Nilagay ko pa sa calendar ko. Inaantay ko pa ng 12 MN kagabi para magreet ko siya pero sad to say, nakatulugan ko. Aaaarrgghhh... NAKALIMUTAN KO ANG BIRTHDAY NG BEST FRIEND KO!!!!
Buti na lang binuksan ko ang calendar ko ngayon at nakita ko nga na brithday niya. Tumawag ako agad sa kanya. Namputsa, nakalimutan ko... di kaya mainis na naman sa kin tong bruhang ito? Di bale, babawi na lang ako next week pag nag kita kami. Libre ko na lang siya ng Yellow Cab.
Buti na lang binuksan ko ang calendar ko ngayon at nakita ko nga na brithday niya. Tumawag ako agad sa kanya. Namputsa, nakalimutan ko... di kaya mainis na naman sa kin tong bruhang ito? Di bale, babawi na lang ako next week pag nag kita kami. Libre ko na lang siya ng Yellow Cab.
Monday, March 19, 2007
Filler
Hanggang ngayon, di ko alam kung pano ko dudugtungan at tatapusin yung story na ginawa ko. Siguro hanggang simula lang talaga yung kaya ko... pero challenge to para sa kin.
Baby ko ang "The Reunion" na story. Nagsimula ito 7 years ago, yung panahong nagsisimula na akong gumawa ng direksyon sa buhay ko. Iniisip ko kasi, san at ano na nga ba kami 10 years from now?
Sa story, High School reunion ang mangyayari. Pero pano magkakaron ng reunion kung di muna babalikan yung high school di ba?
So ang story, magkakabrakada sila. Yung Sandy, nag-aral sa Switzerland para makalimutan yung first love niya. Yung playboy niyang kaibigan, si Francis, simula nung nakita niyang nasaktan yung best friend niya, di na ulit nagka gf through out his adult life. Si Vanz naman, narealize niya na ang laki nyang tanga nung pinakawalan niya si Sandy. Yun lang. Simpleng love story na may happy ending na naman although ayoko talaga sa mga happy endings. nagkataon lang na yun nag nagawa ng aking imahinasyon.
Reunion...
3 years from now High School reunion na namin. Ano ba ang maipagmamalaki ko? Ano ba yung mga bagay na ineexpect sa kin ng mga kabatch ko? Ano nga ba ang gusto kong ipakita sa kanila pag bumalik ako?
Simple lang naman: dapat successful na ako. Pero parang hindi mangyayari yun... dahil bukod sa undergrad ako, isa lang akong simpleng tech support. call center agent. agent. hindi ako engineer. isa akong tech support agent.
Ang important naman, nakatuntong ako ng college. May trabaho ako na ang sweldo ay 15k a month. Siguro ok na rin yun.
Isa pa, di pa rin ako pumapayat. Nung 4th year HS ako, medyo nangangayayat na ako. Biglang naudlot. Ewan ko ba, siguro iba lang talaga pag in love. Haaayyy...
Regrets...
Syempre marami ako nyan. Maraming marami. Simula pa lang nung high school. Ewan ko ba kung bakit di ako popular. Minsan lang. Sandali lang. Pero di ko naenjoy dahil nagsummer vacation after nun.
Ewan ko rin kung bakit walang nanliligaw sa kin nun. A, siguro kasi ang taba taba ko nun. Dinadaan ko na lang sa talino ang lahat.
Bakit ba hindi ako niligawan nung first love ko?
Bakit napakabitter ko nung 4th year high school?
Bakit ba computer engineering yung kinuha kong course at hindi Journalism na gusto kong kunin?
Bakit ba hindi ako pumasa sa UST?
Bakit hindi ako nag exam sa UP?
Bakit pinakawalan ko yung tanging taong nagpahalaga at nagmahal sa akin ng totoo?
Bakit hindi ko ginalingan yung mga subjects ko at bakit hindi ako naging honor student?
Marahil ang sagot, isip bata pa ako noon. Walang direksyon ang buhay ko. Ang pagdedesisyon, inaasa ko dun sa taong mas nakakatanda sa kin.
Marami akong regrets. Hindi lang yang mga yan. Maraming marami... minsan iniisip ko, sana hindi ko na lang ginawa yung mga bagay na ginawa ko nung bata ako. Para perfect ang buhay ko. Para naging masaya ako. Pero hindi ganon... hindi pwede yun...
Baby ko ang "The Reunion" na story. Nagsimula ito 7 years ago, yung panahong nagsisimula na akong gumawa ng direksyon sa buhay ko. Iniisip ko kasi, san at ano na nga ba kami 10 years from now?
Sa story, High School reunion ang mangyayari. Pero pano magkakaron ng reunion kung di muna babalikan yung high school di ba?
So ang story, magkakabrakada sila. Yung Sandy, nag-aral sa Switzerland para makalimutan yung first love niya. Yung playboy niyang kaibigan, si Francis, simula nung nakita niyang nasaktan yung best friend niya, di na ulit nagka gf through out his adult life. Si Vanz naman, narealize niya na ang laki nyang tanga nung pinakawalan niya si Sandy. Yun lang. Simpleng love story na may happy ending na naman although ayoko talaga sa mga happy endings. nagkataon lang na yun nag nagawa ng aking imahinasyon.
Reunion...
3 years from now High School reunion na namin. Ano ba ang maipagmamalaki ko? Ano ba yung mga bagay na ineexpect sa kin ng mga kabatch ko? Ano nga ba ang gusto kong ipakita sa kanila pag bumalik ako?
Simple lang naman: dapat successful na ako. Pero parang hindi mangyayari yun... dahil bukod sa undergrad ako, isa lang akong simpleng tech support. call center agent. agent. hindi ako engineer. isa akong tech support agent.
Ang important naman, nakatuntong ako ng college. May trabaho ako na ang sweldo ay 15k a month. Siguro ok na rin yun.
Isa pa, di pa rin ako pumapayat. Nung 4th year HS ako, medyo nangangayayat na ako. Biglang naudlot. Ewan ko ba, siguro iba lang talaga pag in love. Haaayyy...
Regrets...
Syempre marami ako nyan. Maraming marami. Simula pa lang nung high school. Ewan ko ba kung bakit di ako popular. Minsan lang. Sandali lang. Pero di ko naenjoy dahil nagsummer vacation after nun.
Ewan ko rin kung bakit walang nanliligaw sa kin nun. A, siguro kasi ang taba taba ko nun. Dinadaan ko na lang sa talino ang lahat.
Bakit ba hindi ako niligawan nung first love ko?
Bakit napakabitter ko nung 4th year high school?
Bakit ba computer engineering yung kinuha kong course at hindi Journalism na gusto kong kunin?
Bakit ba hindi ako pumasa sa UST?
Bakit hindi ako nag exam sa UP?
Bakit pinakawalan ko yung tanging taong nagpahalaga at nagmahal sa akin ng totoo?
Bakit hindi ko ginalingan yung mga subjects ko at bakit hindi ako naging honor student?
Marahil ang sagot, isip bata pa ako noon. Walang direksyon ang buhay ko. Ang pagdedesisyon, inaasa ko dun sa taong mas nakakatanda sa kin.
Marami akong regrets. Hindi lang yang mga yan. Maraming marami... minsan iniisip ko, sana hindi ko na lang ginawa yung mga bagay na ginawa ko nung bata ako. Para perfect ang buhay ko. Para naging masaya ako. Pero hindi ganon... hindi pwede yun...
Friday, March 16, 2007
Story: The Reunion - Prologue
-=Prologue=-
"Just make sure you'll be there at the airport... Yeah I know... All right... Have to go now... Yeah I'll see you at the airport... Bye." Francis Castro hung up the phone as he rushed outside his apartment. "Today is the day..." he told himself as he start up his car. He knows that he have to rush to NAIA to pick up his childhood best friend, who he haven't seen for almost 11 years. "11 years... since she decided to leave... I wonder how she looks like now" he wondered as he drove to the airport.
It has been 11 years since he last saw his childhood friend, Sandy Gonzales. She decided to study Interior Design in Switzerland after they graduated from high school. He knows the real reason why she decided to study in Switzerland, and it's not just to study. "She wants to forget everything..." he thought. "But I just hope that she haven't forgot me yet."
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Manila. Sandy thought that she can never go back to this place again. After 11 years of pursuing her dreams, she decided to go back to face her past. "I have to..." she said to herself.
She scanned through the crowd, hoping to see Francis. "As usual, he's late!" She muttered to herself. She decided to go back inside the airport when she heard somebody calling her. "Cassandra Gonzales!" It was Francis. "You're late. Again." She said. Francis helped her carry her luggages. "Haven't you heard of traffic? And, hey! I'm on time!" He said. "OK, fine!"
They were about to get inside the car when they saw another friend - it was Joey.
"Hey! Wait up for me!!!" he shouted as he ran towards them. Francis looked at Joey, smiling. "That," he said "is the late Joey Echevaria."
Sandy punched Francis. As soon as Joey reached them, he's already catching his breath. "Good... thing... you... guys... are... still... here..." he said between breath. Francis started to laugh. "Better get in, Sandy needs to rest before the big night."
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"So how's your life in Switzerland? I mean, really?" Joey asked as soon as the got into the car. "Just like what I told you guys in my letters. It was a good thing I was able to get 3 months vacation after that very difficult project I've handled."
"That's great! I really can't wait to go to our High School reunion and see old friends. You know, Tanya and Philip's going to be there, and then there's Garie, and Rachelle, and Vanz..."
As soon as she heard the last name Joey mentiones, Sandy became uneasy. Joey noticed then, and realized that he should've mentioned that Vanz's going to be there. "I'm sorry, I didn't know that..."
"No it's OK, Joey. You don't need to apologize."
Sandy stared outside the window. Her memory started to drift back to a chapter in her life that happened 11 years ago in high school...
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"Just make sure you'll be there at the airport... Yeah I know... All right... Have to go now... Yeah I'll see you at the airport... Bye." Francis Castro hung up the phone as he rushed outside his apartment. "Today is the day..." he told himself as he start up his car. He knows that he have to rush to NAIA to pick up his childhood best friend, who he haven't seen for almost 11 years. "11 years... since she decided to leave... I wonder how she looks like now" he wondered as he drove to the airport.
It has been 11 years since he last saw his childhood friend, Sandy Gonzales. She decided to study Interior Design in Switzerland after they graduated from high school. He knows the real reason why she decided to study in Switzerland, and it's not just to study. "She wants to forget everything..." he thought. "But I just hope that she haven't forgot me yet."
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Manila. Sandy thought that she can never go back to this place again. After 11 years of pursuing her dreams, she decided to go back to face her past. "I have to..." she said to herself.
She scanned through the crowd, hoping to see Francis. "As usual, he's late!" She muttered to herself. She decided to go back inside the airport when she heard somebody calling her. "Cassandra Gonzales!" It was Francis. "You're late. Again." She said. Francis helped her carry her luggages. "Haven't you heard of traffic? And, hey! I'm on time!" He said. "OK, fine!"
They were about to get inside the car when they saw another friend - it was Joey.
"Hey! Wait up for me!!!" he shouted as he ran towards them. Francis looked at Joey, smiling. "That," he said "is the late Joey Echevaria."
Sandy punched Francis. As soon as Joey reached them, he's already catching his breath. "Good... thing... you... guys... are... still... here..." he said between breath. Francis started to laugh. "Better get in, Sandy needs to rest before the big night."
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"So how's your life in Switzerland? I mean, really?" Joey asked as soon as the got into the car. "Just like what I told you guys in my letters. It was a good thing I was able to get 3 months vacation after that very difficult project I've handled."
"That's great! I really can't wait to go to our High School reunion and see old friends. You know, Tanya and Philip's going to be there, and then there's Garie, and Rachelle, and Vanz..."
As soon as she heard the last name Joey mentiones, Sandy became uneasy. Joey noticed then, and realized that he should've mentioned that Vanz's going to be there. "I'm sorry, I didn't know that..."
"No it's OK, Joey. You don't need to apologize."
Sandy stared outside the window. Her memory started to drift back to a chapter in her life that happened 11 years ago in high school...
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Safety Engineering sa Call Center...??
Sabi ng nanay ko kahapon, may namatay day na agent sa call center ng dahil sa stress. Nakakatakot talaga, knowing na call center agent din ako. Naalala ko, nung first month ko dito sa RMH, nagkahypertension ako all of a sudden. Mas lalo naman nung nasa Sitel ako. Dami kasing a$$h0l3 na customers eh.
Kung tutuusin, di naman masyadong stressful yung kinalalagyan ko ngayon (chat support) dahil di mo naman sila naririnig. Ang nakakastress lang eh yung pag dalawang sabay na session ang ginagawa ko. Nakakawindang.
Lately rin naman, overfatigued na ako. Kapag nakasteady ako, parang umiikot ang paligid ko. Madalas din ako mahilo. 3 months kasing walang absent, tapos kinarir ko pa yung OT incentive. Pero di naman ako nagsisisi kasi naging 5k richer na naman ang bangko ko.
Last week, nag VL ako. Simula noon, di na ako nahihilo. Pero si mother dear, dahil nga dun sa news na yun, nag-alala na naman. Oo nga naman, may hypertension kasi ang unica ija niya di pwedeng hindi mag-alala. Kaya ayun, napapayag tuloy akong magpacheck up next week sa doctor. Haaay...
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Sa bagay, may mga hazards talaga ang pagtatrabaho sa call center. Gaya na lang ng static electricity. Kala mo hindi delikado, pero according sa prof ko sa Safety Engineering, 3000 volts ang maximum ng Static Electricity. Pwedeng nitong mapahinto ang puso mo. Pwede rin nitong masira ang motherboard mo kung pasaway ka at binuksan mo ang PC mo sa work station. Patay ka rin sa IT pag ginawa mo yun.
Next is stress. Sa stress nagsisimula ang lahat - hypertension, cardiac arrest, asthma, sakit ng ulo, lagnat, at libog. Kaya mahirap mastress.
Susunod naman, yung tenga mo. Kung nasa phone support ka, may posibilidad na mabingi ka lalo na kung nakatodo ang volume ng headset mo. Ilang decibels lang ang kayang ihandle ng ear drum kaya dapat mag-ingat. At huwag kumain sa kama para hindi mapasukan yung tenga mo ng langgam. Nangyari na rin kasi sa kin yun. Ayun, nalagasan ako ng Php 1000+ para sa pagpapacheck up sa doctor at sa gamot na post-otic. Meron pa nga akong nabasa sa e-mail na namantay yung bata kasi napasukan ng langgam yung tenga nya tapos dumami at nagkalat sa brain niya... kinain yung utak niya... Eeeeewwww... pero syempre urban legend lang ata yun.
Yung mata naman, kailangan ingatan rin kaya di dapat palaging nakatutok sa computer. Dapat ipahinga rin ang mata, mahirap na ring mabulag.
Next is the throat. Magpahinga sa kakasalita. Huwag sigawan ang customer. Pero magandang excuse ang sore throat para umabsent at di magcalls kahit isang araw lang.
Sa mga katulad kong nasa chat support, pinaka problema eh yung carpal tunnnel. Di ko alam kung ano yun. Nabasa ko rin sa e-mail ko yun...
Kaya ang suggestion ko, pag may nararamdaman kang hindi maganda, pumunta ka na sa clinic. Ayaw mo nun, iwas calls ka kahit sandali. Mag vacation leave ka rin para mapahinga. Kesehodang unpaid siya, go lang ng go! Mag leave para mapahinga ang katawan.
Yun lang. Bow.
Kung tutuusin, di naman masyadong stressful yung kinalalagyan ko ngayon (chat support) dahil di mo naman sila naririnig. Ang nakakastress lang eh yung pag dalawang sabay na session ang ginagawa ko. Nakakawindang.
Lately rin naman, overfatigued na ako. Kapag nakasteady ako, parang umiikot ang paligid ko. Madalas din ako mahilo. 3 months kasing walang absent, tapos kinarir ko pa yung OT incentive. Pero di naman ako nagsisisi kasi naging 5k richer na naman ang bangko ko.
Last week, nag VL ako. Simula noon, di na ako nahihilo. Pero si mother dear, dahil nga dun sa news na yun, nag-alala na naman. Oo nga naman, may hypertension kasi ang unica ija niya di pwedeng hindi mag-alala. Kaya ayun, napapayag tuloy akong magpacheck up next week sa doctor. Haaay...
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Sa bagay, may mga hazards talaga ang pagtatrabaho sa call center. Gaya na lang ng static electricity. Kala mo hindi delikado, pero according sa prof ko sa Safety Engineering, 3000 volts ang maximum ng Static Electricity. Pwedeng nitong mapahinto ang puso mo. Pwede rin nitong masira ang motherboard mo kung pasaway ka at binuksan mo ang PC mo sa work station. Patay ka rin sa IT pag ginawa mo yun.
Next is stress. Sa stress nagsisimula ang lahat - hypertension, cardiac arrest, asthma, sakit ng ulo, lagnat, at libog. Kaya mahirap mastress.
Susunod naman, yung tenga mo. Kung nasa phone support ka, may posibilidad na mabingi ka lalo na kung nakatodo ang volume ng headset mo. Ilang decibels lang ang kayang ihandle ng ear drum kaya dapat mag-ingat. At huwag kumain sa kama para hindi mapasukan yung tenga mo ng langgam. Nangyari na rin kasi sa kin yun. Ayun, nalagasan ako ng Php 1000+ para sa pagpapacheck up sa doctor at sa gamot na post-otic. Meron pa nga akong nabasa sa e-mail na namantay yung bata kasi napasukan ng langgam yung tenga nya tapos dumami at nagkalat sa brain niya... kinain yung utak niya... Eeeeewwww... pero syempre urban legend lang ata yun.
Yung mata naman, kailangan ingatan rin kaya di dapat palaging nakatutok sa computer. Dapat ipahinga rin ang mata, mahirap na ring mabulag.
Next is the throat. Magpahinga sa kakasalita. Huwag sigawan ang customer. Pero magandang excuse ang sore throat para umabsent at di magcalls kahit isang araw lang.
Sa mga katulad kong nasa chat support, pinaka problema eh yung carpal tunnnel. Di ko alam kung ano yun. Nabasa ko rin sa e-mail ko yun...
Kaya ang suggestion ko, pag may nararamdaman kang hindi maganda, pumunta ka na sa clinic. Ayaw mo nun, iwas calls ka kahit sandali. Mag vacation leave ka rin para mapahinga. Kesehodang unpaid siya, go lang ng go! Mag leave para mapahinga ang katawan.
Yun lang. Bow.
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Uso ang neon green
-=Guilty Pleasure=-
Kahapon, naabutan ko sa PBO yung "It's cool bulol". Sa mga di nakakaalam, yun yung launching movie ni Red Sternberg. Sa mga di nakakakilala kay Red Sternberg, siya si Kiko sa TGiS. Sa mga di nakakaalam ng tungkol sa TGiS, isa siyang youth-oriented show nung late 90's na nagpasimuno ng lahat ng youth oriented show.
Going back sa launching movie ni Kiko, este, ni Red Sternberg pala. Sa totoo lang, korni siya. Korni, korni, korni! Oo, nung nagshowing siya sa sinehan, pinanood ko siya dahil sa pagmamahal ko kay Red Sternberg. Oo, inaamin ko, mahal na mahal ko siya kaya pinanood ko siya NOON. Favorite ko kasi yung loveteam nila ni Rica Peralejo NOON. (Halatang matanda na ako...)
Going back ulit sa movie. Uulitin ko, Korni siya. Grabe! Di ko alam na uso pala ang neon green noon, at ternohan mo ng bright orange!!! Uso ang hating buhok! Cool ang kulat blue na buhok! Hingyorkzski!!! Adik! 90's na 90's!!!
Yung story, ok naman. Pero sana ginalingan ni Red yung pagarte kasi walang kalatoy latoy... haaay...
Pero in fairness... ang gwapo gwapo talaga niya!!! yihee!!! ang gwapo ni papa red!!!
Pero di pa rin ako makapniwalang uso ang neon green noon...
Kahapon, naabutan ko sa PBO yung "It's cool bulol". Sa mga di nakakaalam, yun yung launching movie ni Red Sternberg. Sa mga di nakakakilala kay Red Sternberg, siya si Kiko sa TGiS. Sa mga di nakakaalam ng tungkol sa TGiS, isa siyang youth-oriented show nung late 90's na nagpasimuno ng lahat ng youth oriented show.
Going back sa launching movie ni Kiko, este, ni Red Sternberg pala. Sa totoo lang, korni siya. Korni, korni, korni! Oo, nung nagshowing siya sa sinehan, pinanood ko siya dahil sa pagmamahal ko kay Red Sternberg. Oo, inaamin ko, mahal na mahal ko siya kaya pinanood ko siya NOON. Favorite ko kasi yung loveteam nila ni Rica Peralejo NOON. (Halatang matanda na ako...)
Going back ulit sa movie. Uulitin ko, Korni siya. Grabe! Di ko alam na uso pala ang neon green noon, at ternohan mo ng bright orange!!! Uso ang hating buhok! Cool ang kulat blue na buhok! Hingyorkzski!!! Adik! 90's na 90's!!!
Yung story, ok naman. Pero sana ginalingan ni Red yung pagarte kasi walang kalatoy latoy... haaay...
Pero in fairness... ang gwapo gwapo talaga niya!!! yihee!!! ang gwapo ni papa red!!!
Pero di pa rin ako makapniwalang uso ang neon green noon...
Monday, March 5, 2007
Pulubi Days
Nung unang panahon, may isang batang nasanay sa luho. Lahat ng gusto niya, nakukuha niya. Lahat ng klase ng Barbie, meron siya, at linggo linggo, may bago niyang laruan na nasisira rin bago mag gabi.
Nanggaling siya sa isang prestihiyosong eskwelahan. Madami siyang pangrap. Bukod doon, mahal na mahal siya ng mga magulang - mali - nanay niya. Akala niya walang katapusan yun hanggang sa...
OK Fine, istorya ko to. Kala ko nun, pinaka pulubi days ko na yung wala akong pambili ng pink sago kay Manang Banta... hindi pa pala...
Babala: ang iyong matutunghayan ay totoong nangyari.
Pulubi days:
Haay.. buti na lang ngayon may pera na rin kahit papano...
Nanggaling siya sa isang prestihiyosong eskwelahan. Madami siyang pangrap. Bukod doon, mahal na mahal siya ng mga magulang - mali - nanay niya. Akala niya walang katapusan yun hanggang sa...
OK Fine, istorya ko to. Kala ko nun, pinaka pulubi days ko na yung wala akong pambili ng pink sago kay Manang Banta... hindi pa pala...
Babala: ang iyong matutunghayan ay totoong nangyari.
Pulubi days:
- Naalala ko nung nasa 2nd year college ako, di ako makapasok sa school dahil wala na akong pamasahe. Absent tuloy ako sa favorite subject kong Anal Geom at Psych.
- isang subject lang yung summer ko kasi WALA TALAGA AKONG PAMBAYAD.
- Di si mama yung nagpaaral sa akin.
- For the first time, sa ibang tao ako nanghihingi ng allowance.
- Wala akong pangload. Yung celphone ko na 5110 di ko mapalitan. Bale 3 buwan ata akong di makabili ng prepaid card nun.
- Huli lagi yung pambayad ko sa project.
- Nagtitipid ako ng pangresearch.
- Pinatulan ko yung piso per print sa likod ng SM Manila.
- Nag LOA ako.
- Nagbabaon ako ng lunch kasi mahal ang pagkain sa school. Nung nagsisimula ako sa Sitel, nagbabaon na rin ako ng lunch para tipid.
- Wala kaming telepono.
- Tinutulog ko na lang pag gutom ako.
Haay.. buti na lang ngayon may pera na rin kahit papano...
Thursday, March 1, 2007
Accidentally in love
So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it
How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love
Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love
So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love
Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love
These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no
Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love
We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love (x7)
Accidentally
I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally in love
I'm in love
Alone
ayoko sa lahat yung sobrang namimiss ko yung isang tao... feeling ko mababaliw ako kakaisip sa kanya... haaayyy... kami na pero parang naghiwalay ulit kami dahil di ko na siya macocontact (binenta niya kasi yung phone niya). pero ok lang... alam ko na babalik siya at aantayin ko siya kahit gaano katagal... siya lang ang mahal ko... siya lang...
pero iniisip ko does she deserve me? ni wala man lang akong naitulong sa problema niya... shit talaga... kung hawak ko buhay ko, nagawa ko siyang tulungan kaso...
haayy... mamatay na ata ako sa sobrang pagkamiss ko sa kanya..
pero iniisip ko does she deserve me? ni wala man lang akong naitulong sa problema niya... shit talaga... kung hawak ko buhay ko, nagawa ko siyang tulungan kaso...
haayy... mamatay na ata ako sa sobrang pagkamiss ko sa kanya..
Sunday, February 25, 2007
Trying to get that feeling
At any moment she'll be walking through that door
She won't find me behind it
cause the feeling is gone and
just won't come back anymore
I work so hard to find it
I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
All around, trying to get the feeling again
The one that make me shiver
Make my knees start to quiver
Every time she walks in
I've looked high, low
Everywhere I possibly can
But there's just no trying to get the feeling again
It seemed to disappear as fast as it came
read every book
look for every meditation and poem
just to bring home that old sweet sensation
but it ain't no used to me, trying to get the feeling again
Where did it run to? I thought I'd done all that I could
To keep the love burning
But whatever I've done, I just haven't done it too good
Cause all that's left is yearning
I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
Like a bloodhound searching for a long lost friend
could you help me rediscover
the way to re be her lover once again
read every book
look for every meditation and poem
just to bring home that old sweet sensation
But it ain't no used to me, to try and get that feeling
I want to get that feeling again
I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
trying to get the feeling again
She won't find me behind it
cause the feeling is gone and
just won't come back anymore
I work so hard to find it
I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
All around, trying to get the feeling again
The one that make me shiver
Make my knees start to quiver
Every time she walks in
I've looked high, low
Everywhere I possibly can
But there's just no trying to get the feeling again
It seemed to disappear as fast as it came
read every book
look for every meditation and poem
just to bring home that old sweet sensation
but it ain't no used to me, trying to get the feeling again
Where did it run to? I thought I'd done all that I could
To keep the love burning
But whatever I've done, I just haven't done it too good
Cause all that's left is yearning
I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
Like a bloodhound searching for a long lost friend
could you help me rediscover
the way to re be her lover once again
read every book
look for every meditation and poem
just to bring home that old sweet sensation
But it ain't no used to me, to try and get that feeling
I want to get that feeling again
I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
trying to get the feeling again
Saturday, February 24, 2007
dillema
I just lost her... again... DAMN! stupid me. Kung alam ko lang na mahal pa rin niya ako sana siya na lang ang pinili ko...
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Friends Again
I sent her a message sa friendster mga few days ago. I never thought she would reply or even text me dahil ang alam ko galit sya sa kin...
Pero she sent me a message through friendster and text. OK na kami. I don't have an intention to make her cry, pero she did. Hindi ko naman gustong masaktan siya dun sa message ko... I just want her to know what I've been going through since we broke up. We talked. Yun naman talaga ang kailangan para magkaroon ng closure di ba? I asked kung kamusta na sila... and things didn't turned out right with her and the other party (tama yung magic 8 ball, tama yung last pangtalong answer nya sa iisang tanong... I'm a believer na!). I admitted to her na mahal ko pa rin siya, pero we could never bring back the trust. We talked about what happened and what could've happened. Then, we're ok. We're friends again. Guess hanggang dun na lang yun... haaay... she's best I've ever got... She will always be. No one could ever replace her. Kahit ilan pa ang maging GF or BF ko... she will always have a special part in my heart - the biggest one.
That message, hindi lang naman para sa kanya yun. Para rin kay Volt. I didn't have the courage to send him that message because I'm scare that he'll shut me out. yun lang.
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Nung time na nag-uusap na ulit kami, I met this girl. We have the same interests, and I'm starting to like her. But I don't want to be on a rebound. Natatakot ako kasi baka masaktan ko siya, although I've been saying those 3 words... natatakot ako na baka I still feel something for my ex. Natatakot ako na paasahin siya... pero the unexpected happened. I fell for her. Not just because I needed to fall in love, pero iba siya. Alam ko iba siya. O sige na, alam ko na iniisip mo, na ganito rin ako sa mga ex ko... pero iba to. Iba siya. Basta ang hirap ipaliwanag...
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When they broke up, I was there. I wanted to comfort her as a friend. I wanted her to feel na andito lang ako, na she can talk to me kung sakaling nasasaktan ka. Pero I can't deny the fact that at the back of my mind, I want her back. I want to love her again... pero... mahirap na yung situation ngayon. I do trust her as a friend, but there would be doubts kung magkakabalikan kami. And this girl... God...
Basta I want to comfort her. Yun na lang muna. Wala akong nasabihan ng sama ng loob nung naghiwalay kami. Ayokong magyari yun sa kanya. Basta andito lang ako.. and I'm gald we're friends again...
Pero she sent me a message through friendster and text. OK na kami. I don't have an intention to make her cry, pero she did. Hindi ko naman gustong masaktan siya dun sa message ko... I just want her to know what I've been going through since we broke up. We talked. Yun naman talaga ang kailangan para magkaroon ng closure di ba? I asked kung kamusta na sila... and things didn't turned out right with her and the other party (tama yung magic 8 ball, tama yung last pangtalong answer nya sa iisang tanong... I'm a believer na!). I admitted to her na mahal ko pa rin siya, pero we could never bring back the trust. We talked about what happened and what could've happened. Then, we're ok. We're friends again. Guess hanggang dun na lang yun... haaay... she's best I've ever got... She will always be. No one could ever replace her. Kahit ilan pa ang maging GF or BF ko... she will always have a special part in my heart - the biggest one.
That message, hindi lang naman para sa kanya yun. Para rin kay Volt. I didn't have the courage to send him that message because I'm scare that he'll shut me out. yun lang.
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Nung time na nag-uusap na ulit kami, I met this girl. We have the same interests, and I'm starting to like her. But I don't want to be on a rebound. Natatakot ako kasi baka masaktan ko siya, although I've been saying those 3 words... natatakot ako na baka I still feel something for my ex. Natatakot ako na paasahin siya... pero the unexpected happened. I fell for her. Not just because I needed to fall in love, pero iba siya. Alam ko iba siya. O sige na, alam ko na iniisip mo, na ganito rin ako sa mga ex ko... pero iba to. Iba siya. Basta ang hirap ipaliwanag...
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When they broke up, I was there. I wanted to comfort her as a friend. I wanted her to feel na andito lang ako, na she can talk to me kung sakaling nasasaktan ka. Pero I can't deny the fact that at the back of my mind, I want her back. I want to love her again... pero... mahirap na yung situation ngayon. I do trust her as a friend, but there would be doubts kung magkakabalikan kami. And this girl... God...
Basta I want to comfort her. Yun na lang muna. Wala akong nasabihan ng sama ng loob nung naghiwalay kami. Ayokong magyari yun sa kanya. Basta andito lang ako.. and I'm gald we're friends again...
Monday, February 19, 2007
A mini stop incident
Nagmamadali ako kanina papunta sa office at kagagaling ko ng mini stop. Bumili ako ako ng 2 white chocolates, peewee, vanilla shake at mineral water. Palabas na ako nang may makita akong isang magandang babae. Para syang diwata sa kanyang blonde na buhok. Matangkad siya, maamo ang mukha at maganda ang kanyang ngiti. Napalingon ako sa kanya at nasabi ko sa sarili ko... Shit! ang ganda ng babaeng ito. At napaisip ako...
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Sunday, February 18, 2007
My "Thank God, It's Sabado" and "Growing Up" Days
I remember mt TGIS and GU days. Sobrang fanatic ako. I always wish I have friends like Peachy, Wacks, Cris (ako si Cris), Mickey and Kiko. It's a story of friendship, gorwing up, and dealing with life. I learned a lot from this show.
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-=Memories ko ng TGIS at GU=-
Marami akong favorite moments at episodes sa TGIS at GU:
- Nung namatay si Dominique kasama sa Kiko at nanonood sila ng sunset
- Nung dumating si Mitch from Switzerland at di sila magkita kita ni Kiko
- Nung namatay si Noel
- The retro episode
- Nung nakilala ni JM si Rain
- Nung naging adik si Kiko (in fairness, may talent siya ha!)
- The very first episode (patay kayo diyan... "I'm Francisco Martin Arboleda De Dios"... Alright!!!)
- Nung "may nangyari" kina Angel at Wacks
- Nung naaksidente si Wacks at na-coma
- Nung naaksidente ULIT si Wacks
- Nung hindi sumipot si Peachy sa kasal nila ni Wacks
- Nung nalaman ni JM na buntis si Melissa
- The date rape episode
- The frat episode (the first episode I've watched)
- Nung naging si Kiko at Mitch
- The He said, She said episodes nina Bea at Noel
- Nung nagtanan si Wacks at Peachy
- Nung bumalik si Peachy nang hindi alam ni Wacks
- Nung birthday ni Peachy
- Nung "nadevirginize" si Kiko
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-=Lessons in Life=-
Kahit paano may natutunan naman ako. I knew what to expect in high school, at mas lalo na nung college.
Kung nung high school, papetiks petiks ka, easy lang ang buhay, iba pala ang college. Mas lalong iba na nung natapos na ang college life. This is the real world man!
Lahat nagbabago, lahat tumatanda. Kung noon, ang akala ko, Peachy-Wacks forever, hindi rin. Yung damdamin nagbabago rin.
Life's lesson is that change will always be inevitable. Kung noon, uso ang may bangs, ngayon hindi na. Kung noon, uso ang neon green at neon orange, ngayon, try mo magsuot. Tingnan natin kung di ka nila pagtawanan.
Gaya ng characters sa TGIS, marami rin akong napagdaanan sa teen life ko, as well as sa young adult stage ko.
Like for example, I've been through a hell of financial problems nung college ako. Just like what happened to Mickey. Simula nung namatay yung dad niya, ang dami niyang hirap na pinagdaanan. Ganun din sa kin. Simula nung namatay yung lola ko, ang daming hirap at sakripisyo ang pinagdaanan ko para lang makagraduate ng college (hindi pa naman ako graduate kaya marami pa rin akong sakripisyong pinagdadaanan). Ganun din naman si Kiko (na super crush ko...). He can still put up a happy face kahit wala siyang pera at walang date.
Natutunan ko rin that you can't trust anyone sa college. Sa college, lokohan at gaguhan lang. Gaya nung nangyari kina Peachy, Wacks at Angel. Nadamay pa pati yung buong tropa.
Hindi madali ang lahat. Hindi sa lahat ng oras makukuha mo ang gusto mo. Ang importante, kakayanin mo. Basta andiyan lagi ang tropa at ang pamilya...
(Parang wala ata sa topic yung tinype ko... sensya na!!!)
What About Love?
What if i took my time to love you ?
What if i put no-one above you ?
what if i did the things that really mattered ?
What if i ran through hopes of disaster ?
No-one would care if we had never made it
We're in this alone so why dont we face it
There is no room to blame one another
We just need time to forgive each other
Chorus
What about love...
What about feeling...
What about all the things that make life worth living
What about faith
What about trust
And tell me baby what about us
How can I give this love a new beginning ?
How can I stop the rain its never ending ?
How do i keep my soul reliving ?
Memories of how we should be keep calling
Chorus
Oh baby
I'll take the rivers right
I'll take the happy times
I'll take the moments of disaster
Chorus
Recovery room
So far so good. It's almost a week since we broke up. Although ilang beses ako nagkahypertension dahil dun, masasabin kong ok na ako ngayon
Balik na naman ako sa dati. Globe chat ulit. Hanap ng friends. (kuno...). Pag nararamdaman ko na nagsisink in ulit sya, videoke.
Nagexplore ako ng friendster and I was so shocked to see na marami palang man hater sa friendster. Pretty pa mostly sa kanila. For sure bi rin yung mga yun na gaya ko... kaya nag invite ako...
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Masama siguro pero mula ngayon hindi na ako maniniwala sa love. Stupid lang ang mga taong naniniwala dun. Una sa lahat, walang happy ending. Gawa gawa lang yun nga mga producers ng movies, telenovelas at publisher ng books. I cannot say na manhater na ako. Just so happened na realistic na ako ngayon...
Balik na naman ako sa dati. Globe chat ulit. Hanap ng friends. (kuno...). Pag nararamdaman ko na nagsisink in ulit sya, videoke.
Nagexplore ako ng friendster and I was so shocked to see na marami palang man hater sa friendster. Pretty pa mostly sa kanila. For sure bi rin yung mga yun na gaya ko... kaya nag invite ako...
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Masama siguro pero mula ngayon hindi na ako maniniwala sa love. Stupid lang ang mga taong naniniwala dun. Una sa lahat, walang happy ending. Gawa gawa lang yun nga mga producers ng movies, telenovelas at publisher ng books. I cannot say na manhater na ako. Just so happened na realistic na ako ngayon...
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Learning to unlove
sometimes, just when you think you've found the perfect person, he realizes that there are so many things wrong with you.eventually, you also realizes that there are so many things wrong with him and everything just falls apart. after sometime,you realize its over.
no amount of screaming, kicking and whining can bring you an instant replay of the things that were and could have been. give me the space and the time that i need to learn to unlove you.
ok ka lang ba? I don't think I'm okay.I'm not okay.being confused never belonged to the realm of being okay.do you realize what you do to me?my days seem so much happier.the sun seems to shine brighter.the rain brings smile a smile to my lips.the colors seem more vivid and i now love the things i used to hate.i don't think I'm okay.my life has always been on a timetable.everythin g is planned and every aspect has a structure.everythin g has a plan A and if plan A doesn't work,there's always a plan B.when all else fails,there' s always plan C.when you came,something has placed the entire order in my life upside down...my timetable changed and to the point i don't follow a schedule anymore.my plans were all put on hold.the whole structure just went crashing.i had a clear view of what i wanted,where i was going and by when do i need to get there.the moment you walked in,none of then seemed to matter anymore.all i wanted was to stay with you.and that isn't me.i can't afford to allow that to be me.not this time.not with you.you represent the exact opposite of everything I've ever longed for and yet,for some strange reason,i feel happy when I'm with you.some people have problem dealing with loneliness.i however,find myself having a problem dealing with happiness because i can't justify to my mind what i feel about you.it's just not logical.it defies reason.
you really don't want to see me anymore,no? well,yes...at least until i get over you.at least until i am sure that your presence no longer affects my better judgment.at least until I've accepted the finality of things and never feel myself longing for someone you can not give.let me concentrate on the negative things about you.let me bring you down from the pedestal i once placed you in.allow me to see your worst and then maybe I'd change my mind.let me remind myself that as much as i love you,we have different priorities.that as much as i adore you,you have a way of pissing me off,a way that only you can do.let me be reminded of what a ball and chain you are then maybe I'd learn to see you in a different light.let me gaze you at your countenance one more time and remind myself how forgettable your features are.let me walk with indifference when all i wanted to do was run to your side and embrace you.let me be nonchalant about your stories,about your thoughts.let me be self absorbed,allow me to work myself to death or drag my sorry ass,whacking my brains out with academic pursuits.let me be busy.its just that i don't want to be happy for a moment and be miserable for the next three.i don't want to love you,because i don't want to go thru the pain of letting you go.my mind refuses to let my heart win.
and you know what's the worst part of learning to unlove you? its the disappointing reality,that my messed up heart is stubbornly believing that letting you go means loving you more.its the dark,unacceptable fact that sadly,whoever gets romantically entangled with me at this precise moment of my life,that person will only feel second best to the memory of you.so allow me to get the space and time i need as i live to the day,practicing the art of unloving you.
Invincible
I don't have nerves of steel
I have a heart that feels
I may have cried a million tears but i won't drown
I let myself unfold
Gave you my hand to hold
You took me beyond where i could see
And then you let go of me
I was damaged by the fall
Got the wind knocked out of me
To be standing here at all
I must be invincible
I don't have x-ray eyes
Don't have a heart so wise
How could i have known you'd let me down
If i have known that then
If my eyes were wide open
I still believe i would've risked it
There's no way i would've missed it
Ah...it's a blessing and a curse
Ah...but you find out just what you're worth
I have a heart that feels
I may have cried a million tears but i won't drown
I let myself unfold
Gave you my hand to hold
You took me beyond where i could see
And then you let go of me
I was damaged by the fall
Got the wind knocked out of me
To be standing here at all
I must be invincible
I don't have x-ray eyes
Don't have a heart so wise
How could i have known you'd let me down
If i have known that then
If my eyes were wide open
I still believe i would've risked it
There's no way i would've missed it
Ah...it's a blessing and a curse
Ah...but you find out just what you're worth
To Love Again
Radio's fine
It helps me forget for awhile
I look back and recall
Those days i had with you
Sometimes i need a friend just to make it through
Anther day spent without you
You, you gave me all the reasons to live
But then you had to go
And i just got to let you know
It's hard to love again just to make it through
Another day spent without you
And i don't wanna go on pretending
That it's gonna be a happy ending
If i should love again
Once i've learned to love again
And oh, it will never be the same without you baby
This pain inside me's driving me crazy
'coz it's hard to love again
Friends are great, they cheer me up for sometime
But when the day is done
My mind is back again with you
Oh god i need a friend just to make it through
Another day spent without you
And i don't wanna go on pretending
That it's gonna be a happy ending
If i should love again
Once i've learned to love again...ooh
And oh, it will never be the same without you baby
This pain inside me's driving me crazy
'coz it's hard to love again
'coz it's hard to love again
It helps me forget for awhile
I look back and recall
Those days i had with you
Sometimes i need a friend just to make it through
Anther day spent without you
You, you gave me all the reasons to live
But then you had to go
And i just got to let you know
It's hard to love again just to make it through
Another day spent without you
And i don't wanna go on pretending
That it's gonna be a happy ending
If i should love again
Once i've learned to love again
And oh, it will never be the same without you baby
This pain inside me's driving me crazy
'coz it's hard to love again
Friends are great, they cheer me up for sometime
But when the day is done
My mind is back again with you
Oh god i need a friend just to make it through
Another day spent without you
And i don't wanna go on pretending
That it's gonna be a happy ending
If i should love again
Once i've learned to love again...ooh
And oh, it will never be the same without you baby
This pain inside me's driving me crazy
'coz it's hard to love again
'coz it's hard to love again
Friday, February 16, 2007
I'm not Josie Grossy anymore!!!
Sometime you'll kiss someone and know that's the person you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life.
That thing. That moment when you kiss someone and everything around you becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person. And you realize that that person is the only person you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life. And for one moment you get this amazing gift, and you wanna laugh, and you wanna cry... 'cause you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that it'll go away all at the same time.
That thing. That moment when you kiss someone and everything around you becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person. And you realize that that person is the only person you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life. And for one moment you get this amazing gift, and you wanna laugh, and you wanna cry... 'cause you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that it'll go away all at the same time.
Lessons
Lesson of Life
I feared being alone
until I learned to like myself.
I feared failure
until I realized that I only fail when I don't try.
I feared success
until I realized that I had to try in order to be happy with myself.
I feared people's opinions
until I learned that people would have opinions about me anyway.
I feared rejection
ntil I learned to have faith in myself.
I feared pain
until I learned that it's necessary for growth.
I feared the truth
until I saw the ugliness in lies.
I feared life
until I experienced its beauty.
I feared death
until I realized that it's not an end, but a beginning.
I feared my destiny,
until I realized that i had the power to change my life.
I feared hate
until I saw that it was nothing more than ignorance.
I feared love
until it touched my heart, making the darkness fade into endless sunny days.
I feared ridicule
until I learned how to laugh at myself.
I feared growing old
until I realized that I gained wisdom every day.
I feared the future
until I realized that life just kept getting better
I feared the past
until i realized it could no longer hurt me.
I feared the dark
until I saw the beauty of the starlight.
I feared the light
until I learned that the truth would give me the strength.
I feared change
until I saw that even the most beautiful butterfly had to undergo a metamorphosis before it could fly.
I feared being alone
until I learned to like myself.
I feared failure
until I realized that I only fail when I don't try.
I feared success
until I realized that I had to try in order to be happy with myself.
I feared people's opinions
until I learned that people would have opinions about me anyway.
I feared rejection
ntil I learned to have faith in myself.
I feared pain
until I learned that it's necessary for growth.
I feared the truth
until I saw the ugliness in lies.
I feared life
until I experienced its beauty.
I feared death
until I realized that it's not an end, but a beginning.
I feared my destiny,
until I realized that i had the power to change my life.
I feared hate
until I saw that it was nothing more than ignorance.
I feared love
until it touched my heart, making the darkness fade into endless sunny days.
I feared ridicule
until I learned how to laugh at myself.
I feared growing old
until I realized that I gained wisdom every day.
I feared the future
until I realized that life just kept getting better
I feared the past
until i realized it could no longer hurt me.
I feared the dark
until I saw the beauty of the starlight.
I feared the light
until I learned that the truth would give me the strength.
I feared change
until I saw that even the most beautiful butterfly had to undergo a metamorphosis before it could fly.
ARE YOU READY TO LOVE AGAIN
Our love lives can be a series of ups and downs, a romantic roller
coaster of anticipated thrills and unexpected drops, some leaving our
little hearts squashed all over the pavement below. After any
particularly turbulent and emotional ride, as we attempt to quickly
distance ourselves from the machinery of so much pain and uncertainty,
many can be heard to swear off of romance altogether.
Time heals all wounds
We all need time to recover from any unsuccessful romantic relationship.
Acknowledging our feelings, understanding our behavior and accepting the
unhappy outcome are all necessary steps for letting go and moving on. The
pace at which we move through these steps is unique to each of us.
While one week may be enough time for some people and in some situations,
one year may prove too short for others. And there is no one time of
absolute readiness, as there is no guarantee that memories of past loves
won't occasionally seat themselves behind us. While it is in our nature
to persevere, in spite of our fears about the ensuing ride, when
reentering the dating world, timing is everything.
Signs you aren't ready
If you aren't sure you're ready to date again, you aren't alone. It's
often harder to pin down an exact point of readiness than it is to
observe a lack of readiness.
You probably aren't ready to date again if:
You have maintained any sexual relationship with your ex.
You still live with your ex, even platonically.
You are still wearing a ring, carrying a photo, or defining yourself as
part of a couple.
You are stalking, following, harassing or frequently thinking about your ex.
You continue to harbor overwhelming negative feelings about your ex.
You continue to cry or be angry about the circumstances of your last
relationship.
What are your motivations?
To assess your romantic readiness, consider your motives for wanting to
date again. A love affair is not a panacea for all that ails you. Before
you can find, form and maintain a happy and healthy relationship, you
must first heal yourself. If you feel poisoned and victimized by
circumstances and life choices, you must learn to make changes and live better.
These generally aren't the right reasons to date:
Everyone else at work is married and you want to fit in.
A wife/husband would greatly improve your financial situation.
You're unhappy with your life, feel empty, and want someone to fill you up.
Finally, your emotional stamina may come into question when getting back
into the dating game, since even casual dating can come with its ups and
downs. Before you venture out among other eligible and interested
singles, you may want to prepare yourself for the romantic realities awaiting
you.
Seize the day
You're probably ready to date if you feel capable of facing any of the
following:
Being rejected when asking for a dance, phone number or date.
Answering questions about your last relationship.
Navigating misunderstandings and disagreements.
Working through the various issues that are bound to come up.
Rejecting someone honestly and kindly.
Identifying, accepting and admitting strong feelings for someone new.
Allowing yourself to be open and vulnerable, and to one day love and be
loved.
Whether you decide you're ready to date again or not, go at your own
pace. The roller coasters continue to run and there a plenty of us
waiting to board. Be patient; someone is saving a seat for you right now.
coaster of anticipated thrills and unexpected drops, some leaving our
little hearts squashed all over the pavement below. After any
particularly turbulent and emotional ride, as we attempt to quickly
distance ourselves from the machinery of so much pain and uncertainty,
many can be heard to swear off of romance altogether.
Time heals all wounds
We all need time to recover from any unsuccessful romantic relationship.
Acknowledging our feelings, understanding our behavior and accepting the
unhappy outcome are all necessary steps for letting go and moving on. The
pace at which we move through these steps is unique to each of us.
While one week may be enough time for some people and in some situations,
one year may prove too short for others. And there is no one time of
absolute readiness, as there is no guarantee that memories of past loves
won't occasionally seat themselves behind us. While it is in our nature
to persevere, in spite of our fears about the ensuing ride, when
reentering the dating world, timing is everything.
Signs you aren't ready
If you aren't sure you're ready to date again, you aren't alone. It's
often harder to pin down an exact point of readiness than it is to
observe a lack of readiness.
You probably aren't ready to date again if:
You have maintained any sexual relationship with your ex.
You still live with your ex, even platonically.
You are still wearing a ring, carrying a photo, or defining yourself as
part of a couple.
You are stalking, following, harassing or frequently thinking about your ex.
You continue to harbor overwhelming negative feelings about your ex.
You continue to cry or be angry about the circumstances of your last
relationship.
What are your motivations?
To assess your romantic readiness, consider your motives for wanting to
date again. A love affair is not a panacea for all that ails you. Before
you can find, form and maintain a happy and healthy relationship, you
must first heal yourself. If you feel poisoned and victimized by
circumstances and life choices, you must learn to make changes and live better.
These generally aren't the right reasons to date:
Everyone else at work is married and you want to fit in.
A wife/husband would greatly improve your financial situation.
You're unhappy with your life, feel empty, and want someone to fill you up.
Finally, your emotional stamina may come into question when getting back
into the dating game, since even casual dating can come with its ups and
downs. Before you venture out among other eligible and interested
singles, you may want to prepare yourself for the romantic realities awaiting
you.
Seize the day
You're probably ready to date if you feel capable of facing any of the
following:
Being rejected when asking for a dance, phone number or date.
Answering questions about your last relationship.
Navigating misunderstandings and disagreements.
Working through the various issues that are bound to come up.
Rejecting someone honestly and kindly.
Identifying, accepting and admitting strong feelings for someone new.
Allowing yourself to be open and vulnerable, and to one day love and be
loved.
Whether you decide you're ready to date again or not, go at your own
pace. The roller coasters continue to run and there a plenty of us
waiting to board. Be patient; someone is saving a seat for you right now.
God says...
For all the negative things we have to say to
ourselves, God has a positive answer for it:
You say: "It's impossible"
God says: All things are possible (Luke 18:27)
You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)]
You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you (John 3:16; John 13:34)
You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians
12:9; Psalm 91:15)
You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)
You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)
You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)
You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it (Romans 8:28)
You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I forgive you (I John 1:9; Romans 8:1)
You say: "I can't manage"
God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians
4:19)
You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II
Timothy 1:7)
You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on Me (I Peter 5:7)
You say: "I don't have enough faith"
God says: I've given everyone a measure of faith
(Romans 12:3)
You say: "I'm not smart enough"
God says: I give you wisdom (I Corinthians 1:30)
You say: "I feel all alone"
God says: I will never leave you nor forsake you
(Hebrews 13:5)
ourselves, God has a positive answer for it:
You say: "It's impossible"
God says: All things are possible (Luke 18:27)
You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)]
You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you (John 3:16; John 13:34)
You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians
12:9; Psalm 91:15)
You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)
You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)
You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)
You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it (Romans 8:28)
You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I forgive you (I John 1:9; Romans 8:1)
You say: "I can't manage"
God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians
4:19)
You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II
Timothy 1:7)
You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on Me (I Peter 5:7)
You say: "I don't have enough faith"
God says: I've given everyone a measure of faith
(Romans 12:3)
You say: "I'm not smart enough"
God says: I give you wisdom (I Corinthians 1:30)
You say: "I feel all alone"
God says: I will never leave you nor forsake you
(Hebrews 13:5)
Single
All your life, you had specific dreams about what your family life
would be like when you finally married.
You were so intent on what you wanted, you even made a list of qualities
and characteristics you were looking for in a spouse,in a home, in your
job, in your children.
But time passed, and that person you were so intent on didn't come
along.
All of your friends married, had children, had beautiful homes. And
still you were single.
You prayed and prayed fro that person to come along, but nothing happened.
You had a good job. You served in your church. You spent daily time with
the Lord in prayer and studying the Word.
You dedicated your life to serving God in every way possible, but still
nothing.
So you decided to take matters into your own hands, and you began an
active search for a mate. And within a short period, you met someone who
almost fit the bill. Almost. Sure, there were a few things Missing, a few
rusty spots in that person's character. But, after all, no one is perfect.
Of course,your friends and your pastor tried to council you that you were
making a poor choice and that you should wait for the Lord to send the
right person. But that couldn't be right. You had waited for a long
time.
Maybe your goals were too high. Maybe you'd been asking for the
impossible. Maybe this was the person God wanted for you so your
character could grow through dealing with his or her failings.
So you married. And your life went down hill from there......
Even though it often seems that God is slow to answer prayers, no matter
whether it's about a mate, or a job, or our children, or our finances,
or anything else, we have to remember that God doesn't wear a watch.
Nor does He look at our human calendars. He sees with eternal eyes. He
operates on an eternal timetable, according to His plan and His
schedule. If God seems to be running late, don't get impatient and run
ahead of
him.
Wait for the Lord's timing in everything. To the single folks
outthere,this is for you.
Single means you have the time to grow and be the person you want to be.
Single gives you space to grow. Sometimes, it is harder to grow when
you are too close to someone.
Trees are planted far apart so they can spread their branches and become
strong as they mature.
Single means learning to live by yourself. However, that is no more
difficult than learning to live with somebody else.
Single means freedom. You are free to spend a week's vacation on the
beach, to take computer courses, to work late on an interesting project, to
spend the day in bed with a good book or simply with a person who has read
one.
Single means learning not to need a man/woman to make your life
meaningful but learning to live with a man/woman because you want to be with
him/her.
Single means that sometimes you will wonder why you will bite your lip
and feel wistful and wonder if marriage is better.
Ironically, yet quite happily, single is feeling good about being in
control of your life. It is liking and respecting who you are and why
you are.
Single is realizing that being married is not necessarily better, it
is merely different.
Single means that there could be something wonderful around the corner
and you can take advantage of it.
Single means you are free to love again.
There are times when we are afraid of telling the person, whom we love
or like, what we feel deep inside because we might just lose them.
That's a big risk...I know. But hey....everything is. The way I see
it is why keep something inside and then end up regretting it in the
near future?
But as I've said....everything is a big risk. SO whatever you decide
to do with your feelings.... whether you tell it to that person or
not...you have to be ready with the consequences that come after it and
accept it.
Whatever decisions that you have made in your life is part of your
growing experience...part of life. Whatever decisions that you have to
make will influence or affect your future. So think hard before deciding
on certain things and PRAY TO GOD and he will show you the way.
would be like when you finally married.
You were so intent on what you wanted, you even made a list of qualities
and characteristics you were looking for in a spouse,in a home, in your
job, in your children.
But time passed, and that person you were so intent on didn't come
along.
All of your friends married, had children, had beautiful homes. And
still you were single.
You prayed and prayed fro that person to come along, but nothing happened.
You had a good job. You served in your church. You spent daily time with
the Lord in prayer and studying the Word.
You dedicated your life to serving God in every way possible, but still
nothing.
So you decided to take matters into your own hands, and you began an
active search for a mate. And within a short period, you met someone who
almost fit the bill. Almost. Sure, there were a few things Missing, a few
rusty spots in that person's character. But, after all, no one is perfect.
Of course,your friends and your pastor tried to council you that you were
making a poor choice and that you should wait for the Lord to send the
right person. But that couldn't be right. You had waited for a long
time.
Maybe your goals were too high. Maybe you'd been asking for the
impossible. Maybe this was the person God wanted for you so your
character could grow through dealing with his or her failings.
So you married. And your life went down hill from there......
Even though it often seems that God is slow to answer prayers, no matter
whether it's about a mate, or a job, or our children, or our finances,
or anything else, we have to remember that God doesn't wear a watch.
Nor does He look at our human calendars. He sees with eternal eyes. He
operates on an eternal timetable, according to His plan and His
schedule. If God seems to be running late, don't get impatient and run
ahead of
him.
Wait for the Lord's timing in everything. To the single folks
outthere,this is for you.
Single means you have the time to grow and be the person you want to be.
Single gives you space to grow. Sometimes, it is harder to grow when
you are too close to someone.
Trees are planted far apart so they can spread their branches and become
strong as they mature.
Single means learning to live by yourself. However, that is no more
difficult than learning to live with somebody else.
Single means freedom. You are free to spend a week's vacation on the
beach, to take computer courses, to work late on an interesting project, to
spend the day in bed with a good book or simply with a person who has read
one.
Single means learning not to need a man/woman to make your life
meaningful but learning to live with a man/woman because you want to be with
him/her.
Single means that sometimes you will wonder why you will bite your lip
and feel wistful and wonder if marriage is better.
Ironically, yet quite happily, single is feeling good about being in
control of your life. It is liking and respecting who you are and why
you are.
Single is realizing that being married is not necessarily better, it
is merely different.
Single means that there could be something wonderful around the corner
and you can take advantage of it.
Single means you are free to love again.
There are times when we are afraid of telling the person, whom we love
or like, what we feel deep inside because we might just lose them.
That's a big risk...I know. But hey....everything is. The way I see
it is why keep something inside and then end up regretting it in the
near future?
But as I've said....everything is a big risk. SO whatever you decide
to do with your feelings.... whether you tell it to that person or
not...you have to be ready with the consequences that come after it and
accept it.
Whatever decisions that you have made in your life is part of your
growing experience...part of life. Whatever decisions that you have to
make will influence or affect your future. So think hard before deciding
on certain things and PRAY TO GOD and he will show you the way.
Sayings
Experience is something you don't get until just after you need it.
It's always darkest before dawn. So if you're going to steal your neighbor's newspaper, that's the time to do it.
Don't be irreplaceable; if you can't be replaced, you can't be promoted.
Always remember you're unique, just like everyone else.
Never test the depth of the water with both feet.
It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a warning to others.
If you think nobody cares if you're alive, try missing a couple of car payments.
Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile away and you have their shoes.
If at first you don't succeed, skydiving is not for you.
Don't squat with your spurs on.
If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything.
Some days you are the bug, some days you are the windshield.
Good judgment comes from bad experience, and a lot of that comes from bad judgment.
Timing has an awful lot to do with the outcome of a rain dance.
Duct tape is like the force; it has a light side & a dark side, and it holds the universe together.
There are two theories to arguing with women. Neither one works.
Experience is the sinking feeling you have made this mistake before.
Never miss a good chance to shut up.
It's always darkest before dawn. So if you're going to steal your neighbor's newspaper, that's the time to do it.
Don't be irreplaceable; if you can't be replaced, you can't be promoted.
Always remember you're unique, just like everyone else.
Never test the depth of the water with both feet.
It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a warning to others.
If you think nobody cares if you're alive, try missing a couple of car payments.
Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile away and you have their shoes.
If at first you don't succeed, skydiving is not for you.
Don't squat with your spurs on.
If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything.
Some days you are the bug, some days you are the windshield.
Good judgment comes from bad experience, and a lot of that comes from bad judgment.
Timing has an awful lot to do with the outcome of a rain dance.
Duct tape is like the force; it has a light side & a dark side, and it holds the universe together.
There are two theories to arguing with women. Neither one works.
Experience is the sinking feeling you have made this mistake before.
Never miss a good chance to shut up.
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Everyone should have this list
Everyone should have this list
by Thomas Kinkade
1. If you feel far away from God, guess who moved?
2. Fear knocked. Faith answered. No one was there.
3. What you are is God's gift to you. What you become is your gift to God.
4. I am God's melody of life and He sings His song through me.
5. We can never really go where God is not, and where He is, all is well.
6. No matter what is happening in your life, know that God is waiting
for you with open arms.
7. God promises a safe landing, not a calm passage.
8. Do your best and then sleep in peace. God is awake.
9. God has a purpose and plan for me that no one else can fulfill.
10. The will of God will never take you to where the grace of God will
not protect you.
11. We are responsible for the effort, not the outcome.
12. We set the sail; God makes the wind.
13. Begin to weave and God will give you the thread.
14. Sometimes when God says "no", it's because He has something better
in store for you.
15. The task ahead of us is never as great as the power behind us.
16. Prayer: don't bother to give God instructions, just report for
duty.
17. It's my business to do God's business and it's His business to
take care of my business.
18. Serenity is not freedom from the storm, but peace amid the storm.
19. How come you're always running around looking for God? He's
not lost.
20. God put me on earth to accomplish a number of things; right
now I'm so far behind I will live forever.
by Thomas Kinkade
1. If you feel far away from God, guess who moved?
2. Fear knocked. Faith answered. No one was there.
3. What you are is God's gift to you. What you become is your gift to God.
4. I am God's melody of life and He sings His song through me.
5. We can never really go where God is not, and where He is, all is well.
6. No matter what is happening in your life, know that God is waiting
for you with open arms.
7. God promises a safe landing, not a calm passage.
8. Do your best and then sleep in peace. God is awake.
9. God has a purpose and plan for me that no one else can fulfill.
10. The will of God will never take you to where the grace of God will
not protect you.
11. We are responsible for the effort, not the outcome.
12. We set the sail; God makes the wind.
13. Begin to weave and God will give you the thread.
14. Sometimes when God says "no", it's because He has something better
in store for you.
15. The task ahead of us is never as great as the power behind us.
16. Prayer: don't bother to give God instructions, just report for
duty.
17. It's my business to do God's business and it's His business to
take care of my business.
18. Serenity is not freedom from the storm, but peace amid the storm.
19. How come you're always running around looking for God? He's
not lost.
20. God put me on earth to accomplish a number of things; right
now I'm so far behind I will live forever.
Of Speed Dating and finding "The One"
I've watched th movie "Hitch" yesterday, ad there's a part there na nakipag speed dating si Eva Mendes. Meron din commercial ng speed dating sa ETC kahapon. Makes me wonder... what If I join this speed dating just for the heck of it???
Ang speed dating ay isang romantic rendition ng paborito kong larong "Trip to Jerusalem". Guys and girls are given a specific time to get to know each other. At the end, they'll score each other. Pag pareho kayong mataas na score, match kayo. Pag hindi, better luck next time. (Parang Fifth Wheel...)
So I tried signing up sa www.itzamatch.com, pero syempre di na naman naglagay ng pic ang lola nyo (FYI: i'm a fraid to be ridiculed...) . Let's see If I can find "The One" from there...
Ang speed dating ay isang romantic rendition ng paborito kong larong "Trip to Jerusalem". Guys and girls are given a specific time to get to know each other. At the end, they'll score each other. Pag pareho kayong mataas na score, match kayo. Pag hindi, better luck next time. (Parang Fifth Wheel...)
So I tried signing up sa www.itzamatch.com, pero syempre di na naman naglagay ng pic ang lola nyo (FYI: i'm a fraid to be ridiculed...) . Let's see If I can find "The One" from there...
Is there something?
Lately I see clouds of sorrow in your eyes
Some deep sadness you can never quite disguise
Now I'm scared to ask what it's leading to
But I'm more afraid of not asking you
Is there something that you want to tell me
Is there something that I ought to know
Are we something that's still worth fighting for
Or should I simply let you go
Is there something I can do to reach you
Are we something more than history
I'll find some way to convince you to stay
If you just tell me honestly
Is there something left of you and me
You've got secrets you've been keeping for too long
And I'm going crazy acting like there's nothing wrong
I can taste the truth every time we kiss
And I can't go on
At least not like this
I don't want to lose you
But what's the use of holding on
I don't really have you
If the feeling's gone
Is there something I can do to reach you
Are we something more than history
If there's no way to convince you to stay
And be the way we used to be
Then there's something that I want to tell you
And I want you to believe it's true
We had something that I'll never forget
Even if I wanted to
'Cause part of me will always be with you...
Out of reach
Knew the signs
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be
Catch myself
From despair
I could drown
If I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be OK
But I was
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be
So much hurt,
So much pain
Takes a while
To regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time,
You'll be out of my mind
And I'll be over you
But now I'm
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach,
So far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be
Out of reach,
So far
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There's a life out there
For me
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be
Catch myself
From despair
I could drown
If I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be OK
But I was
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be
So much hurt,
So much pain
Takes a while
To regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time,
You'll be out of my mind
And I'll be over you
But now I'm
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach,
So far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be
Out of reach,
So far
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There's a life out there
For me
Till I get over you
Woke up today thinking of you
Another night and I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they could never come true
I press rewind
I remember when
I close my eyes and I’m with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain
Every time I hear your name
Chorus
The sun won’t shine since you went away
Seems like the rain’s falling every day
There’s just one heart, where there once was two
That’s the way it’s gotta be,
until I get over you…
[you...........]
Verse 2
Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can’t escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say the time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here
Chorus
[till i get over....... you...]
Bridge
When will this river of tears stop fallin’
Where can I run so I won’t feel alone
Can’t walk away when the pain keeps callin’
I’ve just gotta take it from here on my own
But it’s so hard to let go .....
[oh no no no]
[oh no no]
Chorus
[you.........................]
[you.........................]
thats the way its gotta be until i get over you
[until i get over....you.....]
Another night and I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they could never come true
I press rewind
I remember when
I close my eyes and I’m with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain
Every time I hear your name
Chorus
The sun won’t shine since you went away
Seems like the rain’s falling every day
There’s just one heart, where there once was two
That’s the way it’s gotta be,
until I get over you…
[you...........]
Verse 2
Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can’t escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say the time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here
Chorus
[till i get over....... you...]
Bridge
When will this river of tears stop fallin’
Where can I run so I won’t feel alone
Can’t walk away when the pain keeps callin’
I’ve just gotta take it from here on my own
But it’s so hard to let go .....
[oh no no no]
[oh no no]
Chorus
[you.........................]
[you.........................]
thats the way its gotta be until i get over you
[until i get over....you.....]
Hardest thing
We both know that I shouldn't be here
This is wrong
And baby it's killing me
It's killing you
But both of us trying to be strong
I've got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
Someone else who loves me
And trusted me fast asleep
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you i don't love you
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion
When you start to cry
I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending i don't love you
I know we'll meet again
Fate has a place and time
So you can get on with your life
I've got to be cruel to be kind
Like Doctor Zhivago
All my love i'll be sending
And you'll never know
'Cause there can be no happy ending
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you i don't love you
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion
When you start to cry
I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending i don't love you
Maybe another time, another day
As much as I want to I can't stay
I've made up my mind
There's no turning back
She's been good to be
And she deserves better than that
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you i don't love you
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion
When you start to cry
I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending i don't love you
Monday, February 12, 2007
Shaky...
I'm a little shaky right now... I don't know if it's my BP or something. It seems that when I receive any text message from a stranger, I get a little shaky. Eto ang mahirap pag di natapos ng maganda ang relationship at minura mo yung third party at yung ex mo... parang everytime na may nagtetext kala mo mumurahin ka... oh well... guess I'll get some rest over my offs...
Closing time
Closing time open all the doors
And let you into the world
Closing time, turn all of the lights on
Over every boy and every girl
Closing time, one last call for alcohol
So finish your whiskey and beer
Closing time, you don't have to go home
But you can't stay here
I know who I want to take me home...(3x)
Take me home
Closing time, time for you to go back
To the places you will be from
Closing time, this room wasn't open
Till your brothers and your sisters come
So gather up your jackets and move it to the exits
I hope you have found a friend
Closing time, every new beginning
Comes from some other beginning's end, yeah
I know who I want to take me home...(3x)
Take me home
Closing time, time for you to go out
To the places you will be from
I know who I want to take me home...(3x)
Take me home
Closing time, every new beginning
Comes from some other beginning's end
And let you into the world
Closing time, turn all of the lights on
Over every boy and every girl
Closing time, one last call for alcohol
So finish your whiskey and beer
Closing time, you don't have to go home
But you can't stay here
I know who I want to take me home...(3x)
Take me home
Closing time, time for you to go back
To the places you will be from
Closing time, this room wasn't open
Till your brothers and your sisters come
So gather up your jackets and move it to the exits
I hope you have found a friend
Closing time, every new beginning
Comes from some other beginning's end, yeah
I know who I want to take me home...(3x)
Take me home
Closing time, time for you to go out
To the places you will be from
I know who I want to take me home...(3x)
Take me home
Closing time, every new beginning
Comes from some other beginning's end
Beer
Nais kung magpakalasing
Dahil wala kana
Naka tingin sa salamin
At nag iisa
Naka tanim parin ang gumamelang
Binalik mo sa akiy
Ng tayoy maghiwalay
Ngayoy katulad ng damdamin mo
Kahit buhusan mo ng beer
Ay ayaw pang mamatay
*ref
Pag iibig wag mo sanay limutin
Ang mga araw na linisan at naglaho
Mga anak at bahay nating piplano
Halat ng itoy nawala
Nung iniwan mo ko
Kaya ngayon
*cho
Ibuhos na ang beer
Sa akin lalamunan
Upang malunod na ang
Puso ko nahihirapan
Bawat patak anong sarap
Ano ba talaga ang mas gusto ko
Ang beer na to o ang pag ibig mo
Nais kung magpaka sabog
Dahil olats ako
Kahit ano hihit-hitin
Kahit tambotso
Kukuha ako ng beer
At ipapakukulo sa kaldero't
Lalanghapin ang usok nito
Lahat ay aking gagawin upang
Hinde kona isipin na
Nagiisa na ako
Repeat *cho *ref
Ibuhos na ang beer
Sa akin lalamunan
Upang malunod na ang
Puso ko nahihirapan
Bawat patak anong sarap
Ano ba talaga ang mas gusto ko
Ang beer na to o ang pag ibig mo
Ang beer nato...
Ang beer nato..
O ang pag ibig mo....
Dahil wala kana
Naka tingin sa salamin
At nag iisa
Naka tanim parin ang gumamelang
Binalik mo sa akiy
Ng tayoy maghiwalay
Ngayoy katulad ng damdamin mo
Kahit buhusan mo ng beer
Ay ayaw pang mamatay
*ref
Pag iibig wag mo sanay limutin
Ang mga araw na linisan at naglaho
Mga anak at bahay nating piplano
Halat ng itoy nawala
Nung iniwan mo ko
Kaya ngayon
*cho
Ibuhos na ang beer
Sa akin lalamunan
Upang malunod na ang
Puso ko nahihirapan
Bawat patak anong sarap
Ano ba talaga ang mas gusto ko
Ang beer na to o ang pag ibig mo
Nais kung magpaka sabog
Dahil olats ako
Kahit ano hihit-hitin
Kahit tambotso
Kukuha ako ng beer
At ipapakukulo sa kaldero't
Lalanghapin ang usok nito
Lahat ay aking gagawin upang
Hinde kona isipin na
Nagiisa na ako
Repeat *cho *ref
Ibuhos na ang beer
Sa akin lalamunan
Upang malunod na ang
Puso ko nahihirapan
Bawat patak anong sarap
Ano ba talaga ang mas gusto ko
Ang beer na to o ang pag ibig mo
Ang beer nato...
Ang beer nato..
O ang pag ibig mo....
Everything a woman should know...
1. How to fall in love without losing yourself.
2. How you feel about having kids.
3. How to quit a job, break up with a man and confront a friend without ruining the friendship.
4. When to try harder and when to walk away.
5. How to kiss a man in a way that communicates perfectly what you would and wouldn't like to happen next.
6. How to have a good time at a party you'd never choose to attend.
7. How to ask for what you want in a way that makes it most likely you'll get it.
8. That you can't change the length of your calves, the width of your hips or the nature of your parents.
9. That your childhood may not have been perfect, but it's over.
10. What you and wouldn't do for love or money.
11. How to live alone, even if you don't like it.
12. Who you can trust, who you can't, and why you shouldn't take it personally.
13.How to love imperfectly.
2. How you feel about having kids.
3. How to quit a job, break up with a man and confront a friend without ruining the friendship.
4. When to try harder and when to walk away.
5. How to kiss a man in a way that communicates perfectly what you would and wouldn't like to happen next.
6. How to have a good time at a party you'd never choose to attend.
7. How to ask for what you want in a way that makes it most likely you'll get it.
8. That you can't change the length of your calves, the width of your hips or the nature of your parents.
9. That your childhood may not have been perfect, but it's over.
10. What you and wouldn't do for love or money.
11. How to live alone, even if you don't like it.
12. Who you can trust, who you can't, and why you shouldn't take it personally.
13.How to love imperfectly.
Kung ayaw mo na sa akin...
Kung ayaw mo na sa akin
Di na kita pipilitin
Kung buo na ang loob mo
Bahala ka na sa buhay mo
At di ako desperado
Sa walang kapantay na pagibig mo
Sa mga halik mong walang kasing tamis
Tubig ako at ikaw ay langis
Kung hindi ka na babalik
Araw-araw na akong gigimik
Kung malayo ka na
Ay malaya na ako
Ngunit ang kahapon ko ay bihag pa rin ng alalaa mo
Kung ayaw mo na sa akin
Di na kita hahabulin
Medyo bata pa naman ako
May mabibighani pa sa akin siguro
Kung ayaw mo na ako
Leche lalong ayaw ko sayo
Alam mo naman kung san ang bahay ko
Baka sakali magbago ang isip mo pleaaase
La-la-la-la oohh waahh ohh waahh
La-la-la-la oh waah oohh waahh
Di na kita pipilitin
Kung buo na ang loob mo
Bahala ka na sa buhay mo
At di ako desperado
Sa walang kapantay na pagibig mo
Sa mga halik mong walang kasing tamis
Tubig ako at ikaw ay langis
Kung hindi ka na babalik
Araw-araw na akong gigimik
Kung malayo ka na
Ay malaya na ako
Ngunit ang kahapon ko ay bihag pa rin ng alalaa mo
Kung ayaw mo na sa akin
Di na kita hahabulin
Medyo bata pa naman ako
May mabibighani pa sa akin siguro
Kung ayaw mo na ako
Leche lalong ayaw ko sayo
Alam mo naman kung san ang bahay ko
Baka sakali magbago ang isip mo pleaaase
La-la-la-la oohh waahh ohh waahh
La-la-la-la oh waah oohh waahh
If the feeling is gone...
If the feeling is gone
please don't pretend that you still love me
I can see it in your eyes
and it hurts to admit it
I can tell that the feeling is gone
All i ask is just a little honesty
Though i know that you're not coming back to me
You know i'll do anything to make you stay
But i just have to let you know
If the feeling is gone
There's a sadness in your smile
Though I try to conceal it
I can tell that the feeling is gone
All i ask is just a little honesty
Though i know that you're not coming back to me
You know i'll do anything to make you stay
But i just have to let you go
If the feeling is gone
All i ask is just a little honesty
Though i know that you're not coming back to me
You know i'll do anything to make you stay
But i just have to let you go
I just have to let you go
I just have to let you go
If the feeling is gone....
Stay...
On and on
Down in Jamaica
They go lots of pretty women
Steal your money
Then they break your heart
Lonesome sue, she's in love with ol'Sam
Take him from the fire into the frying pan
On and on
She just keeps on trying
And she smiles when she feels like crying
On and on, On and on, On and on
Poor ol'Jimmy
Sits alone in the moonlight
Saw his woman kiss another man
So he takes a ladder
Steals the stars from the sky
Puts on Sinatra and starts to cry
On and on
He just keeps on trying
And he smiles when he feels like crying
On and on, On and on, On and on
When the first time is the last time
It can make you feel so bad
But if you know it, show it
Hold on tight
Don't let her say: Goodnight
Got the sun on my shoulders
And my toes in the sand
My woman's left me for some other man
Aw, but I don't care
I'll just dream and stay tan
Toss up my heart to see where it lands
On and on
I just keep on trying
And I smile when I feel like dying
On and on (9x)
Valentine's day
Pagpasensyahan nyo na kung malungkot ako, kung naging depressed ako, kung nawalan ako ng tiwala sa sarili ko. Ang tindi kasi ng problema ko this weekend. I'm starting a new chapter of my life now. Pasensya na rin kung puro sad songs ang nakapost sa blog ko. meron akong 3 dahilan:
Medyo OK na ako ngayon. Sana tuloy tuloy na. Hirap talagang mainlove, nakakahigh blood kaya di muna ako maiinilove ngayong taon na ito.
Sanay na rin naman akong walang date ng Valentine's day. OK rin naman maging single. Daming perks... pero ayoko nang ienumerate pa yung mga yun.
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Gumising ako kanina na medyo mabigat pa rin ang loob ko sa nangyari. Pagbangon ko ng kama, nakita ko yung statue ni Jesus na nakasabit sa dingding. Ipinikit ko ang mga mata ko, at nagdasal ako.
Ipinagdasal ko na sana bigyan Niya ako ng lakas sa mga susunod na araw...
Ipinagdasal ko na sana alisin Niya yung bigat sa dibdib ko...
Ipinagdasal ko na sana patnubayan Niya ako...
Ipinagdasal ko na sana matutunan kong makalimutan ang lahat...
Ipinagdasal ko na sana bigyan Niya ako ng lakas na matanggap ang mga bagay na di ko na kaya pang baguhin...
Ipinagdasal ko na sana tulungan Niya akong maibalik ang tiwala ko sa sarili ko at sa ibang tao...
Ipinagdasal ko na sana matutuhan ko na siyang mapatawad...
Ipinagdasal ko na Siya na ang bahala sa kanilang dalawa...
Ipinagdasal ko na sana may natutunan ako sa mga pangyayaring ito...
Ipinagdasal ko na rin na gabayan niya ako, at ipinauubaya ko na sa Kanya ang buhay ko, na sana bigyan niya ako ng direksyon sa buhay...
Matutunan ko rin siyang makalimutan pero hindi sa ngayon. Matutunan ko rin siyang kalimutan, at kailangan simulan ko na ngayon.
Wala na rin yung sakit... wala na. Talaga palang pag nagdasal ka, pakikinggan ka ng Diyos...
- Mahilig lang talaga ako sa sad love songs
- Broken hearted ako
- it's my way to release the pain I feel inside
Medyo OK na ako ngayon. Sana tuloy tuloy na. Hirap talagang mainlove, nakakahigh blood kaya di muna ako maiinilove ngayong taon na ito.
Sanay na rin naman akong walang date ng Valentine's day. OK rin naman maging single. Daming perks... pero ayoko nang ienumerate pa yung mga yun.
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Gumising ako kanina na medyo mabigat pa rin ang loob ko sa nangyari. Pagbangon ko ng kama, nakita ko yung statue ni Jesus na nakasabit sa dingding. Ipinikit ko ang mga mata ko, at nagdasal ako.
Ipinagdasal ko na sana bigyan Niya ako ng lakas sa mga susunod na araw...
Ipinagdasal ko na sana alisin Niya yung bigat sa dibdib ko...
Ipinagdasal ko na sana patnubayan Niya ako...
Ipinagdasal ko na sana matutunan kong makalimutan ang lahat...
Ipinagdasal ko na sana bigyan Niya ako ng lakas na matanggap ang mga bagay na di ko na kaya pang baguhin...
Ipinagdasal ko na sana tulungan Niya akong maibalik ang tiwala ko sa sarili ko at sa ibang tao...
Ipinagdasal ko na sana matutuhan ko na siyang mapatawad...
Ipinagdasal ko na Siya na ang bahala sa kanilang dalawa...
Ipinagdasal ko na sana may natutunan ako sa mga pangyayaring ito...
Ipinagdasal ko na rin na gabayan niya ako, at ipinauubaya ko na sa Kanya ang buhay ko, na sana bigyan niya ako ng direksyon sa buhay...
Matutunan ko rin siyang makalimutan pero hindi sa ngayon. Matutunan ko rin siyang kalimutan, at kailangan simulan ko na ngayon.
Wala na rin yung sakit... wala na. Talaga palang pag nagdasal ka, pakikinggan ka ng Diyos...
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Someday...
Someday you'll gonna realize
One day you'll see it through my eyes
But then i won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if i can't
I know
You don't really see my worth
You think you're the last guy on earth
Well i've got news for you
I know i'm not that strong
But it won't take long
Won't take long
Chorus
Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday
Right now
I know you can tell
I'm down,and i'm not doin' well
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry
Sweet goodbye
Chorus
Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday,
I know someone's gonne be there
Someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day i'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday
Mata
Kumusta na
Nandyan ka pa ba
Wala na yatang ibang magagawa
Kundi tumawa
Nandyan pa ba
Mga ala-ala
Ang tanging bagay na naiwan
Sa 'ting dalawa
Wag nang paikutin ang isa't isa
Lahat ng bagay ay malinaw na
Di na rin kailangan pagpilitan pa
Di mo na kinakailangan pang magsalita
Nakita ko ng lahat ito
Pinahihiwatig ng mata mo
Salamat na lamang sayo
Ohhhhhhh
Nakita ko ng lahat ito
Pinahihiwatig ng mata mo
Salamat na lamang sayo
Ohhhhhhh
Kumusta na
Nandyan ka pa ba
Wala na yatang ibang magagawa
Kundi tumawa
Nandyan pa ba
Mga ala-ala
Ang tanging bagay na naiwan
Sa 'ting dalawa
Wag nang paikutin ang isa't isa
Lahat ng bagay ay malinaw na
Di na rin kailangang pagpilitan pa
Di mo na kinakailangan pang magsalita
Nakita ko ng lahat ito
Pinahihiwatig ng mata mo
Salamat na lamang sayo
Ohhhhhhh
Nakita ko ng lahat ito
Pinahihiwatig ng mata mo
Salamat na lamang sa'yo
Ohhhhhhh
Mata mo, mata mo, mata mo, mata mo...........
Nandyan ka pa ba
Wala na yatang ibang magagawa
Kundi tumawa
Nandyan pa ba
Mga ala-ala
Ang tanging bagay na naiwan
Sa 'ting dalawa
Wag nang paikutin ang isa't isa
Lahat ng bagay ay malinaw na
Di na rin kailangan pagpilitan pa
Di mo na kinakailangan pang magsalita
Nakita ko ng lahat ito
Pinahihiwatig ng mata mo
Salamat na lamang sayo
Ohhhhhhh
Nakita ko ng lahat ito
Pinahihiwatig ng mata mo
Salamat na lamang sayo
Ohhhhhhh
Kumusta na
Nandyan ka pa ba
Wala na yatang ibang magagawa
Kundi tumawa
Nandyan pa ba
Mga ala-ala
Ang tanging bagay na naiwan
Sa 'ting dalawa
Wag nang paikutin ang isa't isa
Lahat ng bagay ay malinaw na
Di na rin kailangang pagpilitan pa
Di mo na kinakailangan pang magsalita
Nakita ko ng lahat ito
Pinahihiwatig ng mata mo
Salamat na lamang sayo
Ohhhhhhh
Nakita ko ng lahat ito
Pinahihiwatig ng mata mo
Salamat na lamang sa'yo
Ohhhhhhh
Mata mo, mata mo, mata mo, mata mo...........
Unti unti na akong naniniwalang walang taong magseseryoso sa kin. Sa pagsubok ko ulit na makipagrelasyon, nauwi rin sa wala. Pinagpalit nya ako sa iba...
Feeling ko wala na talagang taong pwedeng magmahal sa kin. Malas ko naman sa paghahanap ng unconditional love sa ibang tao. OK, maniniwala na akong wala talagang taong magmamahal sa kin. Malamang tatandang dalaga ako... haayyy...
Ayoko nang isipin yung perks ng pagiging single kasi masyado akong naattach sa taong ito para naisin ko pang maging single ulit. Ngayon ko lang naranasan ulit masaktan mula nung nalamn kong nililigawan ni Volt si Sherrie... may mas matinidi pa nga dun kung tutuusin... nung hindi talaga ako masikmura nung mga naging virtual boyfriends ko nung nagmeet na kami... haaayyy...
Sabi nila, kung san ka nadapa, dun ka bumangon. Ewan ko kung makakabangon pa ako. Durog na durog na yung puso ko, yung tipong isang cholesterol na lang ang hindi pumipirma... bibigay na. May I will die a lonely death. Lonely, cold, alone...
Masyado pa akong bata para isipin yun, pero masyado pa rin akong bata para masaktan. Sanay na siguro ako...
Lahat siguro ng mura, nasabi ko na sa kanya. Ganun pala yun. Pag nasaktan ka marami kang di kanais nais na bagay na masasabi, pareho ng sitwasyon pag nagdilim yung paningin mo sa sobrang galit. Pero nakakagaan siya ng loob. Parang... ang gaan.. sobra...
Single muna ako. Hanggang kailan? Di ko alam.... palagay ko hindi na rin ako makikipagrelasyon mapababae o mapalalaki. Pare-pareho lang sila...
And you know what... medyo gumaan nga pakiramdam ko ng naisulat ko nang lahat ng ito... Single life again... Huhu...
Feeling ko wala na talagang taong pwedeng magmahal sa kin. Malas ko naman sa paghahanap ng unconditional love sa ibang tao. OK, maniniwala na akong wala talagang taong magmamahal sa kin. Malamang tatandang dalaga ako... haayyy...
Ayoko nang isipin yung perks ng pagiging single kasi masyado akong naattach sa taong ito para naisin ko pang maging single ulit. Ngayon ko lang naranasan ulit masaktan mula nung nalamn kong nililigawan ni Volt si Sherrie... may mas matinidi pa nga dun kung tutuusin... nung hindi talaga ako masikmura nung mga naging virtual boyfriends ko nung nagmeet na kami... haaayyy...
Sabi nila, kung san ka nadapa, dun ka bumangon. Ewan ko kung makakabangon pa ako. Durog na durog na yung puso ko, yung tipong isang cholesterol na lang ang hindi pumipirma... bibigay na. May I will die a lonely death. Lonely, cold, alone...
Masyado pa akong bata para isipin yun, pero masyado pa rin akong bata para masaktan. Sanay na siguro ako...
Lahat siguro ng mura, nasabi ko na sa kanya. Ganun pala yun. Pag nasaktan ka marami kang di kanais nais na bagay na masasabi, pareho ng sitwasyon pag nagdilim yung paningin mo sa sobrang galit. Pero nakakagaan siya ng loob. Parang... ang gaan.. sobra...
Single muna ako. Hanggang kailan? Di ko alam.... palagay ko hindi na rin ako makikipagrelasyon mapababae o mapalalaki. Pare-pareho lang sila...
And you know what... medyo gumaan nga pakiramdam ko ng naisulat ko nang lahat ng ito... Single life again... Huhu...
Friday, February 9, 2007
Course...
Unang plano: babalik ng Mapua, tatapusin ang COE
Pangalawang plano: lilpat ng school, tatapusin ang COE
Pangatlong plano: lilipat ng school, lilipat ng course
OK na ako sa unang plano. Kaso, nag-offer na ang Mapua ng BS Multimedia Arts and Science at BS Entrepreneurship. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH gusto ko yung 2 courses na yan!!!
Pangalawang plano: lilpat ng school, tatapusin ang COE
Pangatlong plano: lilipat ng school, lilipat ng course
OK na ako sa unang plano. Kaso, nag-offer na ang Mapua ng BS Multimedia Arts and Science at BS Entrepreneurship. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH gusto ko yung 2 courses na yan!!!
ANO BER!!!!!
O sige na.. inaamin ko na... I'm still stalking him pero NOT necessarily dahil mahal ko siya pero kasi gusto ko lang malaman kung kamusta na siya.
Huling balita ko sa kanya... ummm.. sabihin na nating di kaayaaya sa pandinig. To cut the long story short... I ended up crying not because I'm hurt but because I thought it was my fault. Pero OK lang yun, dahil nung time na yun... obsessed ako sa isang taong itago nalang natin sa initial na PJ (Paolo Morales... Is tat yu??? I don't think so! hehehe peace tol!).
Pero nung nabasa ko yung blog nya, di ko alam kung mashoshock ako or maiinis ako... DAHIL HINDI SIYA YUNG TAONG INAKALA KONG SIYA!!! ANO VER????? Akala ko ba'y isa siyang... bakit andami nyang...
(Disclaimer: di nya lam na alam ko kaya ganito, sorry peeps!!)
ANAK NG... PINGTRIPAN NA NAMAN BA AKO??? NANIWALA NA NAMAN BA AKO SA ISANG KASINUNGALNGAN???
Ah, ewan! Bahala na siya sa buhay niya... basta magbabasa na lang ako ng blog niya!!!
Huling balita ko sa kanya... ummm.. sabihin na nating di kaayaaya sa pandinig. To cut the long story short... I ended up crying not because I'm hurt but because I thought it was my fault. Pero OK lang yun, dahil nung time na yun... obsessed ako sa isang taong itago nalang natin sa initial na PJ (Paolo Morales... Is tat yu??? I don't think so! hehehe peace tol!).
Pero nung nabasa ko yung blog nya, di ko alam kung mashoshock ako or maiinis ako... DAHIL HINDI SIYA YUNG TAONG INAKALA KONG SIYA!!! ANO VER????? Akala ko ba'y isa siyang... bakit andami nyang...
(Disclaimer: di nya lam na alam ko kaya ganito, sorry peeps!!)
ANAK NG... PINGTRIPAN NA NAMAN BA AKO??? NANIWALA NA NAMAN BA AKO SA ISANG KASINUNGALNGAN???
Ah, ewan! Bahala na siya sa buhay niya... basta magbabasa na lang ako ng blog niya!!!
Ikaw
Ikaw. Oo, ikaw nga! Napakasuwerte mo sa lahat ng mga taong nagpakatanga at nagpapakatanga sayo! Naisip mo na ba kung ilang dagat na ang pwedeng mabuo mula sa mga luhang tumulo dahil sayo? Masarap ba ang pakiramdam ng iniiyakan kahit buhay ka pa?! Masaya?!
Ilang tanga na ba ang naliwanagan dahil dumating ka sa buhay nila? Ilang henyo na ba ang nabobo sa kaiisip sayo? ilang bochog na ba ang nangayayat sa kakahabol sayo? ilang patpatin na ba ang nakabuhat ng grand piano dahil minahal ka nila?
Nakakatawang isipin at pagtanda siguro natin mahirap paniwalaan, na minsan sa buhay ng batang iyon, ikaw ang naging tampok ng kanyang mga pangarap.
Minsan naman sadyang dumadating sa mga relasyon yung pagkakataon na kailangang bumitaw o mabitawan, makasakit o masaktan. Malas mo na nga lang kung ikaw yung iniwan pero hindi eh. Talagang masuwerte ka kasi ikaw yung nang-iwan. Pero kahit ganoon na nga ang papel mo, lalabas ka pa ring bida at dakila kasi sasabihin ng mokong na ‘to, “Hindi ko siya masisisi. Ako naman talaga ang may kasalanan.” Ayos.
Ilang utak na ba ang binabagabag mo gabi-gabi? Ilang nilalang na ang hindi nakakatulog sa kaiisip sayo? Ilang mga mata na ang parang namagang fishball sa umaga dahil sa magdamag na pag-iyak sa alaala mo?
Alam mo ba na para kang bubblegum sa bumbunan nung taong mahal na mahal ka? Pilit na kinukutkot pero sa huli malagkit pa rin. Para kang mantika sa platong hindi maalis-alis kahit nakalimang banlaw na lalo na kung walang Joy Ultra Calamansi. Para kang monthly period na after three days akala wala na pero may taghabol pa pala.
Isa man yan, o isang barkada, maswerte ka pa rin. Hindi ba nakakataba ng puso ang
malamang may isang nilalang na iinom ng isang shot ng nana at isang kilong taba para lang sayo? Na kahit lasunin mo ng racumin, para pa ring tutang susunod sayo.
Kung ganon pwede ka nang lumundag mula sa Eiffel Tower at makakasigurado kang sa langit pa rin ang bagsak mo dahil may isang nilalang na makikipagbargain kay satanas para sa kaluluwa mo.
Sabihin mo nang hindi ka naman ganon; na iniiwan ka rin at nasasaktan; na hindi mo ginustong magpakapraning sila sayo; na hindi ka ganon kalupit at karahas; na may puso ka ring mamon. Pero wala kang magagawa. Wala akong magagawa. Wala silang magagawa. Naging praning ako sayo eh...
Ilang tanga na ba ang naliwanagan dahil dumating ka sa buhay nila? Ilang henyo na ba ang nabobo sa kaiisip sayo? ilang bochog na ba ang nangayayat sa kakahabol sayo? ilang patpatin na ba ang nakabuhat ng grand piano dahil minahal ka nila?
Nakakatawang isipin at pagtanda siguro natin mahirap paniwalaan, na minsan sa buhay ng batang iyon, ikaw ang naging tampok ng kanyang mga pangarap.
Minsan naman sadyang dumadating sa mga relasyon yung pagkakataon na kailangang bumitaw o mabitawan, makasakit o masaktan. Malas mo na nga lang kung ikaw yung iniwan pero hindi eh. Talagang masuwerte ka kasi ikaw yung nang-iwan. Pero kahit ganoon na nga ang papel mo, lalabas ka pa ring bida at dakila kasi sasabihin ng mokong na ‘to, “Hindi ko siya masisisi. Ako naman talaga ang may kasalanan.” Ayos.
Ilang utak na ba ang binabagabag mo gabi-gabi? Ilang nilalang na ang hindi nakakatulog sa kaiisip sayo? Ilang mga mata na ang parang namagang fishball sa umaga dahil sa magdamag na pag-iyak sa alaala mo?
Alam mo ba na para kang bubblegum sa bumbunan nung taong mahal na mahal ka? Pilit na kinukutkot pero sa huli malagkit pa rin. Para kang mantika sa platong hindi maalis-alis kahit nakalimang banlaw na lalo na kung walang Joy Ultra Calamansi. Para kang monthly period na after three days akala wala na pero may taghabol pa pala.
Isa man yan, o isang barkada, maswerte ka pa rin. Hindi ba nakakataba ng puso ang
malamang may isang nilalang na iinom ng isang shot ng nana at isang kilong taba para lang sayo? Na kahit lasunin mo ng racumin, para pa ring tutang susunod sayo.
Kung ganon pwede ka nang lumundag mula sa Eiffel Tower at makakasigurado kang sa langit pa rin ang bagsak mo dahil may isang nilalang na makikipagbargain kay satanas para sa kaluluwa mo.
Sabihin mo nang hindi ka naman ganon; na iniiwan ka rin at nasasaktan; na hindi mo ginustong magpakapraning sila sayo; na hindi ka ganon kalupit at karahas; na may puso ka ring mamon. Pero wala kang magagawa. Wala akong magagawa. Wala silang magagawa. Naging praning ako sayo eh...
Reproducng a letter
A letter that I wrote for a guy 2 years ago...
I would give everything just to see your face again. You were a beautiful dream that visited me during my slumber, making me wish that I don’t have to wake up. The sound of your laugh is a melody to my heart, just the thought that I made you smile is a great accomplishment. To me, you are everything. You’re the greatest thing that happened in my life now. You never know how you healed my broken heart, and my wounded soul. Just by your presence, your smile, your glances, you made me feel everything would be all right, and that it’s ok to love once in a while.
I almost gave up on love. I almost believed that fairy tales don’t exists, and that prince charming is but another antagonist in this love story. But you proved me wrong. You were the knight in shining armor, came to rescue me from all the pains, the fears and the misery I’m going through. You were just in time… just in time for me to let go…
In this world, we fall, we get hurt, we feel pain, we have heartaches. I was not ready to face such things. I don’t even know if I could love someone unconditionally, or if I could be happy just by loving someone from a distance. Then you came and I met you. You showed me how hurt you are, and that life still has to go on without the girl you love.
I love you but I’m not expecting anything in return. Maybe just your smile, your glance, or your soothing voice will do. Tonight, if ever I’m going to see you again, I will have to let you go. After I step out of the building, I will have to keep you as just another guy who came into my life, and changed everything. I will never forget you. It’s funny because I had a daydream that I was saying goodbye, and the moment I turned my back to walk away from you; you ran after me and hugged me telling me not to get out of your life. It’s just a dream. But I hope and pray that someday I could see you again, and maybe it will start there. But as of now, I have to continue living my life and find the happiness I was looking for. I love you and I wish you all the best. May God always look upon you. I love you…
Of love, heartaches, and a guy named Voltaire
Alam ko na, even before, I can never have a guy like him. Pero ang nakakatawa sa lahat, I still fell for him despite his flaws. For me, he was a perfect guy. Until I found out the reason why...
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Ayoko nang magkwento ng mga pangyayari sa nagdaang 8 taon dahil nakakasawa na ang kwento. Maiba naman. Ayoko nang sa kanya lang umiikot ang mundo ko. Tao ako, at hindi isang aliping sagigilid niya. Basta ang alam ko, lahat ng pwedeng maramdam ng isang ordinaryong tao, naramdamam ko nung minahal ko sya. But I lost the fight I've been trying to win. But at least, I figured out how to love.
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Now, I'm in love. I'm in love with this wonderful person. I never thought I could feel this way again. When I'm with this person, the world stops, and I feel complete. Mahal ko siya in spite of all the oddities. I will fight for this person no matter what.
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Minsan iniisip ko, hanggang kailan? Oo, tatagal kami pero may patutunguhan ba? Maraming hadlang, at kapag nalaman ng ibang tao, baka di namin makaya ang pangungutya. Minsan, iniisip ko na to let this person go. Baka in the end hindi ko maibigay yung happiness na hinahanap niya, at ganun sya sa kin... Pero what the heck! I love this person, no matter what!
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Stupidity ba yung nagmahal ka nang sobra sobra, umaasa, at naniwala sa mga love quotations na pinapasa nung unang panahon? Oo. Yeah, I'm such a stupid person because it took me 6 years to forget a guy. And all I needed to do to forget this guy is another guy...
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Ayoko nang magkwento ng mga pangyayari sa nagdaang 8 taon dahil nakakasawa na ang kwento. Maiba naman. Ayoko nang sa kanya lang umiikot ang mundo ko. Tao ako, at hindi isang aliping sagigilid niya. Basta ang alam ko, lahat ng pwedeng maramdam ng isang ordinaryong tao, naramdamam ko nung minahal ko sya. But I lost the fight I've been trying to win. But at least, I figured out how to love.
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Now, I'm in love. I'm in love with this wonderful person. I never thought I could feel this way again. When I'm with this person, the world stops, and I feel complete. Mahal ko siya in spite of all the oddities. I will fight for this person no matter what.
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Minsan iniisip ko, hanggang kailan? Oo, tatagal kami pero may patutunguhan ba? Maraming hadlang, at kapag nalaman ng ibang tao, baka di namin makaya ang pangungutya. Minsan, iniisip ko na to let this person go. Baka in the end hindi ko maibigay yung happiness na hinahanap niya, at ganun sya sa kin... Pero what the heck! I love this person, no matter what!
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Stupidity ba yung nagmahal ka nang sobra sobra, umaasa, at naniwala sa mga love quotations na pinapasa nung unang panahon? Oo. Yeah, I'm such a stupid person because it took me 6 years to forget a guy. And all I needed to do to forget this guy is another guy...
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Saturday, February 3, 2007
Para sa taong tinadhana sa aking ng Diyos at ng Pagkakataon
Hindi ko alam kung kailan ka darating. Hindi ko alam kung makikita pa kita. Pero aasa ako sa paniniwalang may isang itinakda para sa lahat ng tao.
Minsan iniisip ko, buhay ka ba? Nasa kabilang dulo ka ba? Ano bang nasa puso mo? Nararamdaman mo rin ba ang nararamdaman ko?
Kung totoo ka man, pwes aasa pa rin akong balang araw makikilala ka. Di ko alam kung kailan, di ko alam kung saan. Kung tama man ang lugar at panahon, Diyos na lang ang nakakaalam.
Sa ngayon, marami akong tanong sa isip ko tungkol sa 'yo. Nasaktan ka na ba? Nagmahal ka na ba ng sobra sobra? Minsan ba sa buhay mo, umasa ka? Minsin ba inisip mo na rin bang huwag nang magmahal ulit, at magtiwala sa ibang tao? Kung ako ang tatanungin mo, oo. Kaya hindi mo ako masisisi kung sakaling dumating ka, saktan lamang kita. Dahil pagod na ako... pagod na pagod...
Kung darating ka, sana dumating ka na, Ayokong sisihin ka balang araw dahil huli ka na. Ayokong dumating ka na hindi na ako marunong magmahal. Dahil baka huli na ang lahat, at matutunan ko na hindi pala kita kailangan...
Kung darating ka ngayon o bukas, Diyos na lang ang makakaalam. Basta't isipin mo palagi na inaantay kita, at umaasa na magiging maligaya rin ako sa piling mo...
Minsan iniisip ko, buhay ka ba? Nasa kabilang dulo ka ba? Ano bang nasa puso mo? Nararamdaman mo rin ba ang nararamdaman ko?
Kung totoo ka man, pwes aasa pa rin akong balang araw makikilala ka. Di ko alam kung kailan, di ko alam kung saan. Kung tama man ang lugar at panahon, Diyos na lang ang nakakaalam.
Sa ngayon, marami akong tanong sa isip ko tungkol sa 'yo. Nasaktan ka na ba? Nagmahal ka na ba ng sobra sobra? Minsan ba sa buhay mo, umasa ka? Minsin ba inisip mo na rin bang huwag nang magmahal ulit, at magtiwala sa ibang tao? Kung ako ang tatanungin mo, oo. Kaya hindi mo ako masisisi kung sakaling dumating ka, saktan lamang kita. Dahil pagod na ako... pagod na pagod...
Kung darating ka, sana dumating ka na, Ayokong sisihin ka balang araw dahil huli ka na. Ayokong dumating ka na hindi na ako marunong magmahal. Dahil baka huli na ang lahat, at matutunan ko na hindi pala kita kailangan...
Kung darating ka ngayon o bukas, Diyos na lang ang makakaalam. Basta't isipin mo palagi na inaantay kita, at umaasa na magiging maligaya rin ako sa piling mo...
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