I'd love to make you mine
'Cause it's the only way to hold you
In my wild imagination
Still don't know how
To grab a chance and spend some time
In just a simple conversation


Just give it a try
Though I'm like chasing rainbows in the sky
I wanna hold you in my dreams
And make believe that it's true
Although I know, I know that it's impossible to do
'Cause you're a star
People love you as you are
You're a million miles away from me

Wished that you were here
'Cause it's illusions every time you're close to me
And sing my love songs
And it's the only way
I could tell the whole world I love you
Although you're a million miles away


Just give it a try
Though I'm like chasing rainbows in the sky
I wanna hold you in my dreams
And make believe that it's true
Although I know, I know that it's impossible to do
'Cause you're a star
You're a star
You're a star




Just give it a try
Though I'm like chasing rainbows in the sky
I wanna hold you in my dreams
And make believe that it's true
Although I know, I know that it's impossible to do
'Cause you're a star
You're a star
You're a star
Million miles away from me...

Seasonal Affective Disorder

I feel lazy these days.

Blame it on the weather that makes me want to sleep the whole day. I'm not supposed to slack off since I have a lot of things to do at work. Well, somehome, Typhoon Egay finally got into me, and so I decided to have an E-day last Wednesday. I don't want to, but a certain sickness known as Seasonal Affective Disorder got me.

No, it's not the usual disease that you can use as an excuse for your sick leave. Basically, it's uncurable. The only way to cure it is to motivate yourself like "money... money.. I need money... I have to go to work", but too bad, it caught me. I still have it. Really. Blame it on the A/C that's on the Siberai mode, the dark sky, the cold weather, the rain... arrgghh!

It's funny, because I used to love it when it rains. Back in high school, I love it when it's signal number 2 since the classes would be suspended. Back in college, I hated it, though I love it especially when they announce that all levels have no classes. Now that I'm working it, I hate it simply because I still have to go to work even though it's raining cats and dogs outside.

Since my station is near the window, just staring outside and watching at the rain pours makes me feel lazy. It makes me have that S.A.D. again. Yes, it's sad because I want to sleep... sleep and sleep... but I have a lot of work to do

Qi Shi Ni Dong Wo - Ying Ye 3 Jia 1 OST

Who am I actually What position do I hold in your heart
If you don't say it out clear You're just letting our love dangle in the mist

Love is annoying Sometimes near, sometimes far, letting people chase after
Chased half a day And yet you won't even say a word of apology

I walk forward Heads down Tears rolling back
Walking continuously Never turning back Hoping that you will find me
It wasn't as I wished My hopes were let down But I still believe
That you do understand me (That you do love me)

I swear a thousand times That once I leave this time, you will never get me back
Although my heart hurts But it's still better than suffering so much humiliation

I wait and wait Memories of your good keep popping into my mind
After so much waiting You still won't even say a word of Babe to comfort me

One front, One back You keep silently behind me Yeh…Yeh…Yeh…
Front front, Back back Hoping that you will hold my hands Yeh…Yeh…Yeh…Wo..Wo..Wo..

I walk forward Heads down Tears rolling back
Walking continuously Never turning back Hoping that you will find me
In my dreams I searched a thousand times for him Hoping that it will be reality
I don't want to leave My heart can't be controlled

I walk forward Heads down Tears rolling back
Walking continuously Never turning back Hoping that you will find me
In my dreams I searched a thousand times for him Hoping it will be reality
I still believed That you do understand me

unexpected

Love is an unexpected event..
You'll never know when it will come,
where it will take place,
and who will make you fall hard...

Random thoughts Part 3

Lunes:

Waaah... masaya ako dahil nagawa ko yung isang bagay na matagal ko nang gustong gawin (pero di pwedeng sabihin dahil nagsign ako ng "waiver". Sana makapunta ako bukas, kaso importante rin yung work ko eh... huhuhu Pero nang dahil sa mga pangyayaring ito, nagkaron muli ako ng lakas ng loob at kapal ng mukha na gawin ang mga bagay na dapat at gusto kong gawin. Gaya ng pag-aaply for higher post (kapal na talaga ng mukha ko).

Martes

ZZzzzzZZZZzzzzZZZZ

Miyerkules

Bumabagyo, nage-day ako, buti na lang kasi bumaha sa bahay namin. Ayos na yung computer ko, yung MP3 player na lang hehehehe

boring!

I have a very boring life. boring. walang lovelife, walang social life, walang night life. walang... err... walang excitement sa buhay ko. wala kasi akong ibang unatupag kundi magtrabaho, manood ng tv, lumamon, magsurf, matulog, magtrabaho, manood ng tv, lumamon, magsurf, matulog,magtrabaho, manood ng tv, lumamon, magsurf, matulog, (repeat 100000000x till fade). simula nung nagstart ang taon, mabibilang ko sa linya ng hinlalaki ko kung ilang beses akong gumimik, lumaklak ng alak, etcetera. kung nung college ako, nagagawa ko pang pumunta ng wow philippines kahit ang labas ko sa mapua eh 10:00 pm, ngayon, diretso uwi na ako, nood lng ng tv ng konti tas uwi na. tapos ang araw ko. ni hindi ko na nagawang gumimik gaya ng pinaplano ko... paano kasi si pie-tots may pasok ng gabi at si coco may pasok rin. haaayyyy boredom...

just got lucky!

... credit card
... a once in a lifetime opportunity
... new resposibility from work
... gc from starbucks

what could possibly go wrong?!

the simpsons sunday

last sunday, sa wakas at napanood na namin ni lil sis ang the simpsons! matapos ang lagpas isang taon nang hindi pagpanood ng sine, nakapanood na rin ako... yeee!!!

sa greenhills kami nanood ni maan. pero syempre, before the main show, may trailers muna. from the trailers, naglista na kami ng susunod na panonoorin gaya ng

1. rush hour 3
2. enchanted
3. the golden compass

super nakakatawa yung the simpsons. ang galing nung story nya. akalain mong, si arnold schwarzenegger eh magiging presidente ng US of A? nyahahaha erap, is tat you?

rainy day resolution

1. I will never wear long pants
2. I will never wear sneakers
3. I will never wear my rainy day sneakers (anak ng... kung mamalasin ka sa opisina pa masisira )
4. I will wear slippers
5. I will bring umbrella
6. I will wear jacket
   

Wings

Love is my wings...
When you abandon me,
I can only fall two thousand feet from the sky...

-Corner With Love-

Weeeeeeeee!!!

Last night, nung pauwi na ako, syempre pumara ako ng jeep. Pag para ng jeep, nagulat ako si si best friend Maan ay nakadungaw sa bintana. Weeee!!! As in todo tili ako pagakyat ko ng jeep kasi naman ilang years na kaming di nagkikita! Weird nga, kasi ang lapit lang ng house nila sa street namin, pero madalang kami magkita. Di gaya nung dati na kahit Saturdays, Sundays, Holidays, eh magkasama kami at namamasyal sa buong Project 2 at Project 3.

Ever since mga bata kami, palagi kaming magkasama. Siguro mapaghihiwalay mo kami kung absent yung isa sa min, kung papasok na sa klase, o magfifive yung isa sa min, yun lang. Pero pag susunduin na kami ng bus o kaya pauwi na kami... ayan na... simula na ng kulitan.

Kakampi ko rin si Maan sa lahat ng bagay, at maging sa natatangi naming kaaway na si Francis. Hehehe... basta siguro hindi ko malalagpasan ang childhood ko nang hindi ko kasama si Maan!

Chase

Hey, you are so hard to chase,
are you trying to ascertain my determination to love you?

-Corner With Love-

Goodbye, Wakefield Twins... Goodbye Childhood Memories... Goodbye, Past...

Since Grade School, I have always been a fan of Sweet Valley. I remember eating my lunch as I could so that I could go to the library and read the misadventures of Jessica and Elizabeth. I would save money to get the latest copy of their book, or badger my mom to buy 3 books for me. Whenever I read their stories, I felt like I'm part of it. Sometimes, I wish that I could be one of the twins, either Jessica or Elizabeth. I grew up with them. I share their experience. I learned more about teenage life because of the twins and their friends.

When the publishers of Sweet Valley High came up with the secret diaries or Jessica and Elizabeth, I remember buying all the three parts of Jessica and Elizabeth's secret diaries. It's because not all of the copies of Sweet Valley High could be found on the Grade School Library, and there was no copy at all at the Day High School Library. I assume that the College Library and the Graduate Studies Library have a copy of it. I also enjoyed reading the Saga series, which tells the story of Sweet Valley and the families who lived there. Too bad, I was only able to read the Patman Saga and the Wakefield Saga. I was not able to buy the Fowler Saga since I didn't have money that time, and I was not able to find a copy of the other Wakefield Saga. I tried to complete the Sweet Valley University series and the Sweet Valley Senior High series, but I wasn't able to do so. I proudly display my Sweet Valley collection on our bookshelf. I have always thought that my collection was priceless.

I use to read the books while waiting for the school bus to leave the school premises, when I'm bored, when I'm waiting for my lil sis, when I needed to do a book report or book review in our English class. I used to share opinions about a certain copy of Sweet Valley to my fellow classmates, who are as addicted as I am. I borrow books from my classmates whenever they got a new copy of SVH. I even watched the TV Series, but it didn't impress me much since the story line is different from what I have read in SVH.

What I didn't liked about SVH, is that the timeline and the plots are quite... uhmmm.... impossible and unrealistic. Who, tell me, who in their right mind would stay in Junior High for more than 10 years? How can all the stories happen when there are only 12 months a years, and 10 months in a school year? It's a little bit weird that I was reading about Jessica and Elizabeth, who are in their junior year, when I was in Grade 5, and yet, I'm still reading about Jessica and Elizabeth who are still in their junior year when I'm already about to start my senior year! Weird! I can't believe a lot of things happen to them during their junior year, and yet, only a few interesting and exciting things happened to me when I was in third year high. I was glad that after the traumatic earthquake that hit Sweet Valley, Jessica, Elizabeth and the gang were able to move to another level. I only got to read the first series of SVH Senior High, since I felt that reading these books is a bit to childish. Right after I graduated from High School, and before I start college, I decided to clear my bookshelf and keep the Sweet Valley books in our "bodega".

Last Wednesday, I found out that most of my Sweet Valley books, together with the other novels and books that I have bought way back in high school, were eaten by termites. The only thing left are small pages and cover, and somewhat unreadable pages. My precious Sweet Valley series collection is gone. For a while, I wanted to cry. I was saving those books for my little Chloe Reese, or for my cousin. Too bad... together with Sweet Valley, a bigger part of me was also eaten by termites - my childhood memories, my past, and my dreams. It was because of Sweet Valley that I desired to be a novelist. I remember before, I tried to write a series of stories just like Sweet Valley, but I was to lazy to finish it. But I guess, it's better that way. I stashed SVH before, hoping that I could finally move on and grow up, but then those books are the only links I have with my past...

That reminds me... I remember I put a love letter between the pages of one of my books... I hope that letter's got eaten by the termites too!

Hope

The little bit of hope in my eyes is hoping for your love to arrive...

-Corner with Love-

mIRC Part 1 - paano manakot ng kachat

<kachat> hi
<kachat> asl?
<akokyut> 1890 yrs old, transylvania

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<kachat> hi
<kachat> ctc?
<akokyut> sure
<akokyut> what's your sss no, gross annual income, tax status, and combined income of your parents?


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<kachat> so what's your hobbies?
<akokyut> mangkulam ng chatmates

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iba na talaga pag bored no? haaayyyy... wala bang chat session jan???

Click on the My Computer icon

Ngayon ko lang napgatatanto ang kahalagan ng mabagal kong computer sa buhay ko. Actually, di naman siya mabagal nung una. Nakapag-install pa nga ako nung Sims 2 at Singles Flirt Up Your Life dun sa PC ko. Ewan ko kung anong nangyari, basta isang araw bumagal siya. Nagkaroon ng error sa CMOS, nagkaroon ng problem sa clock niya (or sa flip-flops nya... JK flip-flop o SR flip-flop?), dinapuan ng sandamakmak na spyware, trojan at virus, at marami pang iba. Sa totoo lang, isang virus o spyware na lang ata ang hindi pumipirma sa computer ko, pero mukhang nakapirma na siya kasi di na gumagana yung computer ko.... huhuhuhu

Goodbye WIndows Media Player, goodbye MP3, goodbye MS Word, goodbye internet, goodbye files... huhuhuhu buti na lang nabackup ko yung mga importanter files bago nalagutan ng hininga yung computer ko... hanggang sa mapagawa kitang mula

turn aroud

I'm always witing for you to
occassionally turn your head around,
which would make the sweat from
chasing you worth while...

-Corner With Love-

Fall

Even if you fall over,
you still have to smile proudly...

-Corner with Love-

Chances

The chances of meeting each other
can be close to impossible...
but it wouldn't hurt to walk around the streets
a few more times...

-Corner with Love-

what a life...

gaya ng inaasahan ko, walang nangyari sa kin sa apat na araw na wala akong pasok. walang lakad, walang gimik, walang pera (kasi tinitipid ko yung pera ko). kaya ang ginawa ko na lang eh nanood ng tv. nanood ng tv. naNood ng Tv. NaNoOd Ng tV.

di rin naman ako makalabas kasi biglang umuulan ng hapon. kaya wala talaga akong choice kundi manood ng tv. o di ba?

isa pang magandang nangyari sa buhay ko, nasira na naman yung computer ko. balak ko na sanang tapusin yung chapter 30 ng novel ko at ibackup yung mga mp3 na dinownload ko. kaso, natuluyan na yung computer ko. boot na lang siya ng boot. ayaw na niyang pumunta sa post. kahit buksan ko siya n alas-singko ng madaling araw at buksan ng alas-singko ng hapon, hindi na siya bumubukas. buti na lang pala, nabackup ko yung mga importanteng files ko gaya ng mp3, resume, quotes, lyrics, pictures, sad quotes... di ko lang naisalba yung research papers ko at yung mga documentations ko para sa mga prototype namin. bad trip

pero ok lang din, kasi nung sabado may 2 akong nadiskubreng taiwanese series - yung "smiling pasta" starring cyndi wang, tsaka yung "ying ye 3 jia 1" starring joe chen and ming dao.

oo nga pala, before pala ng off ko, nanalo ako ng gift check sa starbucks. 100 pesos lang, at di ko pa nagagamit... well... balak ko namang gamitin nung sabado kaso nga di ako umalis di ba?? at gulat naman ako, pinicturan pa ako para dun... para ata may katibayang binigay na yung gift check ko di ba? hehehe